The confessions of a well-meaning womanMcKenna, Stephen
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The confessions of a well-meaning woman
McKenna, Stephen
English fiction -- 20th century; Upper class -- England -- Fiction; Women -- England -- Fiction
"And now," I said, "I can only wish you good luck. I am nothing to
you, but, if you ever feel kindly disposed to a dull old woman, do
your best for Arthur, keep him happy--for my sake. You are making a
great experiment and taking a great risk; you, and you alone, can
crown it with success. When you both ask me to divorce my husband, I
shall take the necessary steps; but I shall do nothing hastily.
Perhaps, when you have been with him for a time, you will find that
the difficulties are greater than you anticipated--or, let me say,
that success is harder of achievement than you hoped. I ask only one
thing: do not force yourselves into an extremity from any false
pride. Be candid with me, as I have been candid with you. Should
you find only _failure_ and the _prospect_ of failure, recognize it
boldly. Write to me. Say 'It has not turned out as we expected.
Your husband is coming back to you.' I shall receive him without
reproaches, I shall know nothing. He will find his favourite dinner,
his chair and cigar, his book and 'night-cap', as he calls it... I
shall be truly glad to see him back, but I look at you, with all your
youth and beauty; I know that I must not keep him if you are his hope
of happiness. Kiss me, dear child," I said, "and do better for him
than I have been able to do."
A singular meeting! She stayed with me for nearly two hours longer.
I won't say "not speaking a word", but I can say "not finishing a
sentence." Bewildered... Then she went away, and I rang for my
maid. I never heard from her again. On Thursday--_the_
Thursday--Arthur found his suit-case and kit-bag packed and labelled
in the hall. "I don't want all this," he said, "for one night." ...
And he was back again in three days. I _happen_ to know that he went
alone and returned alone--and was alone in Paris...
I was talking about the diary, was I not? It is not cheerful
reading, and much of it is dull. This entry in question: "_Arthur
returned from France tired and depressed, but very glad to be home
again..._" It does not mean much...
To any one else...
I am not crying! I am simply _worn-out_...! Oh, my dear, I am too
old for this kind of thing, apart from the long agony of humiliation.
Arthur must send me _right_ away for a _complete_ change. He _can_
afford it now...
IX
LADY ANN SPENWORTH NARRATES AN EMBARRASSMENT AVERTED
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