The Cornhill Magazine (Vol. I, No. 5, May 1860)Various
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The Cornhill Magazine (Vol. I, No. 5, May 1860)
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uplifted land—uplifted, yet secret and full of dismay—ever reached my
ears. Did I say no sound? But I must not anticipate.
[Illustration: LEGEND OF THE PORTENT.]
I will now describe that peculiarity to which I have referred. I have
some reason to believe that I have inherited it from a far-off ancestor.
It seemed to have its root in an unusual delicacy of hearing, which
often conveyed to me sounds inaudible to those about me. This I had many
opportunities of proving. It likewise, however, brought me sounds which
I could never trace back to their origin; but which, notwithstanding,
may have arisen from some natural operation which I had not perseverance
or mental acuteness sufficient to discover. From this, or, it may be,
from some deeper cause with which this was associated, arose a certain
kind of fearfulness connected with the sense of hearing, of which I have
never heard a corresponding instance, but which I think I can easily
make you understand. Full as my mind was of the wild and sometimes
fearful tales of a Highland nursery, fear never entered my mind by the
eyes; nor, when I brooded over tales of terror, and fancied new and yet
more frightful embodiments of horror, did I shudder at any imaginable
spectacle, or tremble lest the fancy should become fact, and from behind
the whin-bush or the elder-hedge should glide forth the tall swaying
form of the Boneless. Indeed, when I was alone in bed, I used to lie
awake, and look out into the room, peopling it with the forms of all the
persons who had died within the scope of my memory and acquaintance.
These fancied forms were vividly present to my imagination. I pictured
them pale, with dark circles around their hollow eyes, visible by a
light which glimmered within them; not the light of life, but a pale
greenish phosphorescence, generated by the decay of the brain inside.
Their garments were white and trailing, but torn and soiled, as if by
trying often in vain to get up out of the buried coffin. So far from
being terrified by these imaginings, I used to delight in them; and even,
when on a long winter evening I did not happen to have any book to read
that interested me sufficiently, to look forward with expectation to the
hour when, laying myself straight upon my back, as if my bed were my
coffin, I could call up from underground all who had passed away, and
see how they fared, yea even what progress they had made towards final
dissolution of form;—but, observe, all the time with my fingers pushed
hard into my ears, lest any the faintest sound should invade the silent
citadel of my soul. If by chance I removed one of my fingers, the agony
of terror I instantly experienced was such as to be, by me at least,
indescribable. I can compare it to nothing but the rushing in upon my
brain of a whole churchyard of spectres. The very possibility of hearing
a sound in such a mood, and at such a time, was enough to torture me.
So I could scare myself in broad daylight, on the open hill-side, by
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