The Cornhill Magazine (vol. XLII, no. 247 new series, January 1917)Various
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The Cornhill Magazine (vol. XLII, no. 247 new series, January 1917)
Various
England -- Periodicals; English literature -- Periodicals; Short stories, English -- Periodicals
In Jan’s thoughts there was not much room for the war and its
vicissitudes. There would have been no room in them at all for Judith
Combe if she had not enjoyed the proverbial privilege of living near the
rose, which entailed the more dubious one of hearing the rose extolled
without intermission during those Sunday walks which at an earlier period
had been so largely taciturn. But Judith was a long-suffering little
soul, and it was only after much hesitation that she ventured to ask:
‘Bain’t ’ee gettin’ tu fond of her, Jan?’
Jan reddened all over his face and neck. ‘Tu fond o’ Miss Mildred! What
be dramin’ about then? Do ’ee think a dog can get tu fond o’ the sun?
You’m talkin’ proper nonsense, Judy.’
Nevertheless, Judith’s words came to him as a shock and a revelation,
over which he pondered for hours afterwards. At first he was ashamed
of his audacity and felt as if he had been guilty of some unpardonable
outrage; but by degrees he arrived at a different view of the matter.
What if he did love a human goddess? When all was said, he could not help
it. The veriest cur, according to his own homely metaphor, may bask in
the sun, and she could not be displeased by what would certainly never be
revealed to her. It was his secret, which he was surely free to cherish,
without the least shadow of hope, much as certain sixteenth-century poets
cherished a passion for Queen Elizabeth, or said they did. But the fact
of being without shadow of hope—as of course he was—did not preclude
indulgence in ecstatic visions. His mobile imagination enabled him to see
himself earning literary renown (like the peasant Robert Burns, perhaps),
rising by virtue of the same to a position of admitted equality with the
highest in the land and stripping the laurels from his brow to lay them
at Mildred’s feet. Such things could not come to pass, and he knew that
they could not; yet he liked to picture them and might plead that his
fancies were as harmless as his love.
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