The Cornhill Magazine (vol. XLII, no. 251 new series, May 1917)Various
History
The Cornhill Magazine (vol. XLII, no. 251 new series, May 1917)
Various
England -- Periodicals; English literature -- Periodicals; Short stories, English -- Periodicals
‘Yes. Also I would like to speak to you ... I ... I ... killed ... one of
your officers ... just now?’
‘Yes,’ I said.
‘I ... saw him fall. As he fell he fired at me too. I am sorry I killed
him. Will you tell his ... his ... people so? And tell them, too, that
it is just war ... silly, wasteful war. He was a soldier, was he, by
profession I mean?’
‘Yes, a soldier.’
‘Then it is his death ... I am only a soldier as all of us are soldiers.
In peace I make music, compose you call it. Music is better than war.’
‘Far better,’ I answered grimly enough.
‘If I had lived I would have written great things. I had vowed it. I had
in my head ... I have it still ... a ... wonderful ballet. It would have
been finer than Petrouchka—as great as _Coq-d’Or_. And the ballet of our
enemies, the Russians, would have performed it.... Enemies! how silly it
is.’ He smiled.
My heart beat a little faster. This was madness, sheer madness, for us to
be discussing music and the Russian ballet on the battlefield and with
him dying. But at the words ‘_Coq-d’Or_’ my memory had suddenly stirred,
and I carried on the conversation eagerly.
‘_Coq-d’Or_ is wonderful, isn’t it?’ I said. ‘Where have you seen it?’
‘Where have I not?’ he answered. ‘In Moscow, Berlin, Paris, in London. It
is great, astonishing.’
‘In London?’
‘But a short time ago—just before the war. I ... I ... had a friend. I
was staying with him. He, too, was a soldier. I forget in what regiment.
I was not interested in armies then.’ He stirred uneasily and partially
turned over on his side. I put my arm beneath him, moistened his lips
with the water. He sighed and began to wander in his talk, the words
German, beyond my comprehension. Yet one kept recurring that told me all,
everything. He must not, should not die yet!
Only for a minute or two did his delirium last. Then his senses returned
and quite suddenly he pressed my hand, and though his voice was fainter
the words were distinct and spoken very slowly as though he wished to be
sure I understood.
‘I ... I want you to do something for me.... I am sure you will. We are
both gentlemen....’ His hand moved to his breast and he made as if to
take something from his tunic.
‘In the pocket of my coat, inside, there is a little leather case. Inside
that ... a photograph of a lady, of an English lady too.’ (Oh! little
world, O narrow little world!) ‘It has been with me through the war. I
dare not and would not have shown it to one of my comrades.... When I die
I want you to take it out and send it to the Honourable Richard Belvoir.
He was a lord’s son, my friend, and the photograph is of his sister. I
... she did not know it, you understand?... I loved her.’
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