The Coward: A Novel of Society and the Field in 1863Morford, Henry
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The Coward: A Novel of Society and the Field in 1863
Morford, Henry
United States -- History -- Civil War, 1861-1865 -- Fiction
"Can thee deny what is in this letter, Eleanor Hill?" asked the Quaker,
his voice trembling, in spite of himself, a little more than it had before
done. Then he added, with something very like a sob in his throat, that
seemed strangely at variance with the general calmness of his demeanor: "I
am rich, Eleanor--very rich, men say; and yet I would give half of all that
I have won in these many years that have made my hair gray, if I could see
thee lay thy hand upon thy heart and look up in my face and say: 'The man
who writes this writes falsehood!'"
"I cannot--oh, God, you know that I cannot, Mr. Bladesden!" sobbed the poor
girl. "It is true in word, and yet heaven knows how false it is in spirit."
"Thee should not appeal to heaven so much, Eleanor, and thee should rise
from thy knees, for I will believe thee just as quickly in the one position
as the other, and the friendly people make their yea yea and their nay nay,
without taking the name of the Father every moment between their lips."
Eleanor Hill managed to rise from her knees and stagger to her feet; but
her position was not the less humble afterward, for she stood grasping the
back of a chair with both hands for support, and with her head bowed down
in such abject shame and humility that the change of posture seemed rather
to have been taking on an added degradation than putting one away.
"See, I have done as you told me to do!" she said, without looking up. "I
would be so obedient to you, always, if you would only take me away from
this misery and shame. Oh, why would he injure me so cruelly--me to whom he
should have been merciful, now, if there was any mercy in his nature!"
"Can thee say that Doctor Philip did not do right, if, as thee says, he
wrote this letter?" asked the Quaker, keeping his eyes steadily upon the
crouching woman, and making no motion to change the distance between them.
"Thee had deceived me, and he knew it. He was sure, perhaps, that thee had
not told me all, and--"
"I told you, months ago, when you first spoke of making me your wife, Mr.
Bladesden," said the poor girl, with one momentary lifting of the bowed
head and one transient flash of womanly spirit--"that I could not give you
a whole heart--that my life had been very unfortunate, and that if I
consented to marry you, you must promise never to ask me one question of my
miserable past. Do you remember that I did?"
"Thee did tell me so much, Eleanor," answered the Quaker. "But thee only
indicated misfortune--not guilt."
"I have _not_ been guilty--I was never guilty!" spoke the girl, the
momentary flash of womanhood not yet extinguished. "You will not let me
appeal to heaven, Mr. Bladesden, yet I must do so once more. I call upon
the all-seeing God to punish me with even worse grief and shame than I have
already borne, if there has ever been one guilty wish in my mind towards
that man or any other--if I have not been forced or deceived into every act
which makes you despise me to-day."
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