Bishop Pelagius lived in the monastery in which the ikon of the Mother
of God, so revered by the people, was preserved. The relics of an old
sainted monk were preserved in the same monastery. Men came from all
ends of Russia to worship these holy relics. That was why this
monastery was considered wealthy.
Trirodov thought for a long time as to how he might best inform the
bishop of the contemplated theft. The thought of writing an anonymous
letter was repugnant to him. He decided that it was better to speak to
the bishop in person, or to write him a letter with his real name. But
then the question remained as to how to explain his own knowledge of
the conspiracy. He himself might be suspected as an accomplice of the
criminals. As it was, the local townsmen had none too friendly an eye
for Trirodov.
He dreaded entangling himself in this dark affair. He already began to
feel vexed with himself for his strange curiosity that impelled him to
question Ostrov about his affairs. It would have been better perhaps
if he were ignorant of the conspiracy. In any case, Trirodov saw
clearly that it was impossible for him to maintain silence. He thought
that the dark aspects of monastic life did not justify the evil deed
planned by Ostrov’s companions. Besides, the consequences of this deed
might well prove very dangerous.
Trirodov decided that there was nothing left for him to do but to pay
a visit to the monastery. Once on the spot, he thought that some
opportunity of informing the bishop would occur to him. But as this
visit was very unpleasant to him, he delayed it a very long time.
CHAPTER XVIII
Trirodov at last realized that he was in love with Elisaveta. He knew
too well the nature of this delicious and painful emotion. It had come
again and once more filled the world with light. He had looked
enigmatically upon this broad, eternally inaccessible world, full of
past memories and past people. But his love of Elisaveta meant his
love and acceptance of the world, the whole world.
This emotion aroused dismay in Trirodov. To the perplexities of the
past, not yet thrown off his shoulders, and to those of the present
begun with a strange, as yet unmeasured influence, were to be added
the perplexities of the future, of a new and unexpected bond. And was
not love in itself a means for realizing one’s dreams?
Trirodov made effort to crush this new love in himself, and to forget
Elisaveta. He tried to keep away from the Rameyevs, not to come to
their house--but with each day his love only increased. His thoughts
and musings of Elisaveta grew more and more persistent. They became
interwoven with one another and grafted themselves on to his soul.
More and more a pencil in his hand guided itself to outline on paper
now her austere profile--softened by the youthful joy of
liberation--now her simple costume, now a rapid sketch of her
shoulders and neck, or the knot of her broad belt.
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