"I know that I care so much that it doesn't matter how you care, or whether you care or not, so long as I can put a stop to that brutality." "There isn't any brutality. I've got everything a woman can want." "You've got everything any other woman can want." She closed her eyes. "I'm quite happy." [Illustration: She closed her eyes. "I'm quite happy."] "For heaven's sake be honest. What is the use of lying, to me of all people? Don't I know how happy you are?" "But I am--I am, George. It's only this horrid, devilish thing that's been tacked on to me----" "That beautiful, divine thing that God made part of you, the thing that you should have loved and made sacrifices to--if there were to have been sacrifices--the thing you've outraged and frustrated, and done your best to destroy, in your blind, senseless lust for what you call happiness. You've no right to make It suffer." "They say suffering's the best thing that can happen to it." "Not Its suffering. _Your_ suffering is--the pain that makes you alive, that stings and urges and keeps you going--going till you drop. To feel the pull of the bit when you swerve on the road--Its road--to have the lash laid about your shoulders when you jib--that's good. You women need the lash more than we because you're more given to swerving and jibbing. Look at Nina. _She_ was lashed into it if any woman ever was." "She isn't the only one, George." "I hope she isn't. God is good to the great artists sometimes, and he was good to her." "Do you suppose Laura thinks so?" "Laura's not a great artist." "And do you suppose Owen was thinking of Nina's genius when he married Laura instead of her?" "I don't think that Owen was thinking at all. It's not the thinkers who are tools in the hands of destiny, dear child." His gaze fell on the manuscript she was packing. "Jinny, you know--you've always known that you can't do anything without me." "It seems as if I couldn't," she admitted. "Well--be honest with me." She looked at her watch. "There's not much time for me to be honest in, but I'll try." She sat down. She meditated a moment, making it out. "You're right. I can't do much without you. I'm not perfectly alive when you're not there. And I can't get away from you--as I can get away from Hugh. I believe I remember every single thing you ever said to me. I'm always wanting to talk to you. I don't want--always--to talk to Hugh. But--I think more of him." It seemed to her that it was only now that she really made it out. Her fear had been no test, it threw no light on her, and it had passed. It was only now, with Tanqueray's passionately logical issue facing her, that she knew herself aright. "There's another thing. I can't be sorry for you. I know I'm hurting you, and I don't seem to care a bit. You can't make me sorry for you. But I'm sorry for Hugh all the time." "God forbid that you should be sorry for me, then."