"It's good of you to let me take my time, doctor, but yours is too
valuable to waste. All I meant was to give you an idea of our
surroundings, as I know they are held to count in such cases. We are
embedded in pines and firs. Some people find trees depressing, but after
India they were just what we wanted, and even now my wife won't let me
cut down one of them. Yet depression is no name for her state of mind;
it's nearer melancholy madness, and latterly she has become subject
to--to delusions--which are influencing her whole character and actions
in the most alarming way. We are finding it difficult, for the first
time in our lives, to keep servants; even her own nephew, who has come
to live with us, only stands it for my sake, poor boy! As for my
nerves--well, thank God I used to think I hadn't got any when I was in
the service; but it's a little hard to be--to be as we are--at our time
of life!" His hot face flamed. "What am I saying? It's a thousand times
harder on _her_! She had been looking forward to these days for years."
Dollar wanted to wring one of the great brown, restless hands. Might he
ask the nature of the delusions?
The General cried: "I'd give ten years of my life if I could tell you!"
"You can tell me what form they take?"
"I must, of course; it is what I came for, after all," the General
muttered. He raised his head and his voice together. "Well, for one
thing she's got herself a ferocious bulldog and a revolver."
Dollar did not move a doctor's muscle. "I suppose there must be a dog
in the country, especially where there are no children. And if you must
have a dog, you can't do better than a bulldog. Is there any reason for
the revolver? Some people think it another necessity of the country."
"It isn't with us--much less as she carries it."
"Ladies in India get in the habit, don't they?"
"She never did. And now----"
"Yes, General? Has she it always by her?"
"Night and day, on a curb bracelet locked to her wrist!"
This time there were no professional pretenses. "I don't wonder you have
trouble with your servants," said Dollar, with as much sympathy as he
liked to show.
"You mayn't see it when you come down, doctor, as I am going to entreat
you to do. She has her sleeves cut on purpose, and it is the smallest
you can buy. But I know it's always there--and always loaded."
Dollar played a while with a queer plain steel ruler, out of keeping
with his other possessions, though it too had its history. It stood on
end before he let it alone and looked up.
"General Dysone, there must be some sort of reason or foundation for
all this. Has anything alarming happened since you have been
at--Valsugana?"
"Nothing that firearms could prevent"
"Do you mind telling me what it is that has happened?"
"We had a tragedy in the winter--a suicide on the place."
"Ah!"
"Her gardener hanged himself. Hers, I say, because the garden is my
wife's affair. I only paid the poor fellow his wages."
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