United States -- History -- Civil War, 1861-1865 -- Fiction
Stephen, too, awoke. The lightning revealed her as she bent over him.
On the wings of memory be flew back to his childhood in the great Boston
house with the rounded front, and he saw the nursery with its high
windows looking out across the Common. Often in the dark had she come to
him thus, her gentle hand passing over aim to feel if he were covered.
“What is it, mother?” he said.
She said: “Stephen, I am afraid that the war has come.”
He sat up, blindly. Even he did not guess the agony in her heart.
“You will have to go, Stephen.”
It was long before his answer came.
“You know that I cannot, mother. We have nothing left but the little I
earn. And if I were--” He did not finish the sentence, for he felt her
trembling. But she said again, with that courage which seems woman's
alone:
“Remember Wilton Brice. Stephen--I can get along. I can sew.”
It was the hour he had dreaded, stolen suddenly upon him out of the
night. How many times had he rehearsed this scene to himself! He,
Stephen Brice, who had preached and slaved and drilled for the Union,
a renegade to be shunned by friend and foe alike! He had talked for his
country, but he would not risk his life for it. He heard them repeating
the charge. He saw them passing him silently on the street. Shamefully
he remembered the time, five months agone, when he had worn the very
uniform of his Revolutionary ancestor. And high above the tier of his
accusers he saw one face, and the look of it stung to the very quick of
his soul.
Before the storm he had fallen asleep in sheer weariness of the
struggle, that face shining through the black veil of the darkness. If
he were to march away in the blue of his country (alas, not of hers!)
she would respect him for risking life for conviction. If he stayed at
home, she would not understand. It was his plain duty to his mother. And
yet he knew that Virginia Carvel and the women like her were ready to
follow with bare feet the march of the soldiers of the South.
The rain was come now, in a flood. Stephen's mother could not see in the
blackness the bitterness on his face. Above the roar of the waters she
listened for his voice.
“I will not go, mother,” he said. “If at length every man is needed,
that will be different.”
“It is for you to decide, my son,” she answered. “There are many ways in
which you can serve your country here. But remember that you may have to
face hard things.”
“I have had to do that before, mother,” he replied calmly. “I cannot
leave you dependent upon charity.”
She went back into her room to pray, for she knew that he had laid his
ambition at her feet.
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