Love stories; Reformatories -- Fiction; Social classes -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
"It's too late."
"No, no!"
"It's too late. I can't cut myself off from him. Jean!" Her voice
quavered to shrill intensity. "Jean! Don't you--don't you _see_!"
Jean saw and was answered, and her womanhood bade her sweep the
weakling to her breast.
"I've kept it from him," wept Amy. "He hates children about. I did not
dare tell him."
"I dare," cried Jean, like a trumpet-call. "And I will."
Her assurance quieted the girl like an anodyne, and presently she
slept. Sundown, twilight, and night succeeded. The watcher's muscles
grew cramped, but whenever she sought to loose the sleeper's clasp,
Amy whimpered like a feverish child, and so she sat compassionately on
aiding nature's healing work. Meanwhile she tried to frame her appeal
to the drummer. How or when she should reach him she knew not; Amy
must bring about a meeting. She did not believe that he had definitely
deserted his victim. His sample-cases in the hall, his innumerable
pipes, his clothing strewn about the bedroom, all argued a return.
She longed that he might come now while her wrath burned hottest and
she might scorch him to a sense of his infamy. It could be done. She
was confident that she could stir him somehow. Surely, he was not
all beast. Somewhere underneath the selfish hide lurked a torpid
microscopic soul, some germ of pity, some spark of manhood.
Then Amy awoke, refreshed, heartened, yet still spineless, clinging,
and dependent; and Jean threw herself into the task of cheering this
mockery of a home. She made Amy bathe her dreadful eyes, arrange
her hair, don a dress the drummer liked; and then set her ordering
the neglected flat, while she herself conjured up a meal from the
unpromising materials which a search of the larder disclosed. The
little kitchen was haunted with ghosts of her other life. The dentist's
astonishing ice-cream freezer and the patent dish-washer stared her in
the face, and her hunt for the tea-canister revealed the kit of tools
she had bought to surprise him. Not a utensil hung here which was not
of their choosing.
And so it was with the other rooms. When she came to lay the cloth,
its grape-vine pattern greeted her like a forgotten acquaintance; the
colonial sideboard and the massive table, as formerly, united to resist
invasion of their tiny stronghold. The silver candelabra, restored to
the giver, still flanked Grimes's Louis XV clock upon the mantelpiece;
the galaxy of American poets hung where she had appointed. The Jean
who had done these things, lived this existence, was a distant, shadowy
personality, and the feat of making her intelligible to another seemed
more than ever impossible. She rejoiced that she had locked this
chapter from Craig. Her present self was her real self, the Jean he
idealized, the real Jean.
The belated supper braced Amy's mood. She became apologetic for the
drummer and sanguine of the future.
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