United States -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
And in truth she had never, not even in the old days, felt so depressed.
This cataclysm had literally left nothing in her life but her manor! Her
three friends were lost irretrievably. To resume any sort of
relationship with Eustace was unthinkable. Polly would drift away,
absorbed in her husband. Elsie had betrayed her.
She felt a deep and harsh resentment toward Elsie. Not for a moment had
she believed in the “cold.” That Elsie should have doubted her cut her
to the quick. . . . For a night, possibly, shocked as she was, and
facing for the first time the fact of her love for the man. But she
should have come to her senses before this.
Perhaps she had loved Elsie more than any of the three, and the hurt had
gone deeper. Well, she loved her no longer. And she indulged in some
bitter musings of her own on the friendship of women.
But she felt terribly alone. Stranded. And she had lost that old boyish
independence and hostility to her kind which had made loneliness far
from insupportable. Well, she must erect another superstructure.
Polly’s laugh floated up, sustained, as it were, on the deeper notes of
her playmate; now quite relieved of anxiety for his distinguished
patient and friend. The tapping of her heels became a rat-tat-tat.
“Come.”
Someone had knocked at her door. The day nurse opened it, her face no
longer solemn. She was smiling as one who had a pleasant message to
deliver. Gita’s heart deliquesced.
“Dr. Pelham promised Mr. Bylant he might see you when he waked up; he’s
so much better,” said the nurse. “He’s just had his broth and is looking
forward to your visit.”
Gita managed to get to her feet and walk steadily over to her
dressing-table. She brushed her hair, powdered, and wished that she
rouged and used a lip-stick. She lingered over these superfluities of
her toilette as long as she dared, with that woman standing behind her.
What was she thinking? She had been told the truth, but did she believe
it? Why not? She remembered a story she had once read of a woman killing
an idolized husband who had returned at night unexpectedly and been
mistaken for a burglar.
What did it matter? She rose from her chair and looked at the nurse much
as her grandmother may have done when her arrogant instinct of caste was
uppermost.
“You may go out into the garden,” she said. “And kindly tell Mrs.
Brewster, when she arrives, that I’ll be down presently.”
It is no longer possible for any but the disappearing ladies of the old
régime to “sweep by” those they wish to impress or ignore, for the skirt
of the period, short hair, and a limp or free swinging carriage, have
put an end to such extrinsic aid to importance. But Gita managed to pass
those interested eyes with a cold blankness that gave the innocent
object of her disdain the feeling she had somehow evaporated, no longer
existed. But she was as sensible as most nurses, and quite used to human
vagaries.
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