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“And I must take it lying down! I, who vowed I’d get him and let nothing
stand in my way. I wish to God I’d killed you!” she burst out
passionately, although the words ended on a sob. “I’d gladly have been
hanged or electrocuted or whatever they do to you in this state. And now
I can’t go at it again. I feel as limp as a young corpse inside. Can’t
even try to scratch your eyes out. Am the well-brought-up Miss Pleyden
once more! Well—thank God I was something else for five minutes. I’ll
cherish that memory through a long and prosaic life. Poor things, we
moderns. Well, I’m off.”
She hesitated, then went forward and held out her hand.
“I don’t ask you to forgive me; but we may as well be sports.”
Gita shook the cold hand. “Good-by, Polly. I’m sorry. Wish it could be
wiped out. I’ll miss you.”
Miss Pleyden shrugged her shoulders. “Chapters have to end sometime.
You’ve made one quite interesting for me! I’ll light a cigarette if you
don’t mind.”
She performed this rite, nodded to Gita and Elsie and swung lightly down
the hall. A moment later they heard her car traveling at a reasonable
pace.
Gita turned to Elsie. “_Vale_, Polly. But you don’t go. Not yet. You
stay here until Eustace is able to leave. That’s final.”
“I feel lost and deserted myself!” exclaimed Elsie. “I wish I’d never
laid eyes on you. You are a terrible devastating force, Gita. What will
you do to my brother!”
And then she stared at Gita’s radiant face.
“Oh, don’t worry! Don’t worry! It won’t be as bad as you think.”
“Oh, when people are in love!” Elsie’s voice was more sarcastic than her
mood.
Gita swung on her heel and stared out into the moonlight. “Better go to
bed,” she said coldly. “Nothing more to say, is there?” . . .
She felt herself moving forward, felt an almost uncontrollable impulse
to run out into that moonlight . . . recapture that mood so strangely
compounded of exaltation and dismay, triumph and disappointment,
poignant sweetness and futile resentment at the remorseless
incompleteness of life. . . .
She whirled upon Elsie and, although her words tumbled out fiercely, a
curious quaver of helplessness ran through them. “Oh, you both have your
revenge! I should think life altogether wonderful tonight and I almost
hate it. It was bad enough to have to break off—to miss—to have to
wait—oh, damn honor! Damn noblesse oblige! I wish we’d been born in a
different class—like some of your sophisticates—that never heard of
such things—no, I don’t! I only wish things could have been
different—that life didn’t always laugh at you—that life wasn’t always
trying to get the best of art and generally succeeding——Life could be
so wonderful and it’s just a mean chromo of art and delights in the fact
and in taunting our anticipations—those lovely works of art we create
and hang in the blessed spaces of the mind—taunting and shattering——
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