"'Of sound, but not extreme principles,'" wrote Cicely. "That sounds a
little strange, for you might say that a man who could not tell a lie,
but yet did not mind a fib, was sound, but not extreme. 'Church
principles'--is that better? But I don't like that either. Stop, I have
it--'He is a sound, but not extreme Churchman'--that is the very
thing--'and has much experience' (Ah, poor papa!) 'in managing a parish.
Apply'--but that is another question. Where ought they to apply? We
cannot give, I suppose, the full name and address here?"
"I wonder if any one will apply? But, Cicely, suppose all comes right,
as I am sure it will, you may be deceiving some one, making them
think--Here is the very person I want; and then how disappointed they
will be!"
"Oh, if there is only _their_ disappointment to think of! Mab, you must
not think there is any reliance to be put on Mr. Mildmay. He meant it;
yes, tears came into his eyes," cried Cicely, with a look of gratitude
and pleasure in her own. "But when he goes back among those Oxford men,
those dons, do you think they will pay any attention to him? They will
laugh at him; they will say he is a Quixote; they will turn it all into
fun, or think it his folly."
"Why should Oxford dons be so much worse than other men?" said Mab,
surprised. "Papa is an Oxford man--he is not hard-hearted. Dons, I
suppose, are just like other people?"
"No," said Cicely, who was arguing against herself, struggling against
the tide of fictitious hope, which sometimes threatened to carry her
away. "They live by themselves among their books; they have nobody
belonging to them; their hearts dry up, and they don't care for common
troubles. Oh, I know it: they are often more heathens than Christians. I
have no faith in those sort of people. He will have a struggle with
them, and then he will find it to be of no use. I am as sure as if it
had happened already," cried Cicely, her bright eyes sparkling indignant
behind her tears.
"At least we need not think them so bad till we know," said Mab, more
charitably.
Cicely had excited herself by this impassioned statement, in which
indeed the Oxford men were innocent sufferers enough, seeing that she
knew nothing about them. "I must not let myself believe it; I dare not
let myself believe it," she said in her heart; "but, oh! if by chance
things did happen _so_!" What abundant compensation, what lavish
apology, did this impetuous young woman feel herself ready to offer to
those maligned dons!
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