"Your fingers to the bone--what good would that do? Listen to me, girls.
Both of you can make a fair enough living for yourselves. You will
easily get a good governess's place, Cicely; for, though you are not
very accomplished, you are so thorough--and Mab, perhaps, if she
succeeds, may do still better. But consider what that is: fifty pounds a
year at the outside; and at first you could not look for that; and you
are always expected to dress well and look nice, and Mab would have all
sorts of expenses for her materials and models and so forth. The
cheapest good school for boys I ever heard of was forty pounds without
clothes, and at present they are too young for school. It is a woman's
work to look after two little things like that. What can you do with
them? If you stay and take care of them, you will all three starve. It
would be far better to get them into some asylum where they would be
well looked after; and then," said Aunt Jane, insinuatingly, "if you got
on very well, or if anything fortunate happened, you could take them
back, don't you see, whenever you liked."
Mab, moved by this, turned her eyes to Cicely for her cue; for there was
a great deal of reason in what Aunt Jane said.
"Don't say anything more about it, please," said Cicely. "We must not
say too much, for I may break down, or any one may break down; but they
shall not go upon charity if I can help it. Oh, charity is very good, I
know; we may be glad of it, all of us, if we get sick or can't find
anything to do; but I must try first--I must try!"
"O Cicely, this is pride, the same sort of pride that prevented your
poor papa from asking for anything----"
"Hush, Aunt Jane! Whatever he did was right; but I am not like papa. I
don't mind asking so long as it is for work. I have an idea now. Poor
Mrs. Jones! I am very very sorry for her, leaving her children desolate.
But some one will have to come in her place. Why should it not be me?
There is a little house quite comfortable and pleasant where I could
have the children; and I think the parish would not refuse me, if it was
only for papa's sake."
"Cicely! my dear child, of what are you thinking?" said Miss Maydew, in
dismay. "A parish schoolmistress! you are dreaming. All this has been
too much for you. My dear, my dear, you must never think of such a thing
again!"
"O Cicely, it is not a place for a lady, surely," cried Mab.
"Look here," said Cicely, the colour mounting to her face. "I'd take in
washing if it was necessary, and if I knew how. A lady! there's nothing
about ladies that I know of in the Bible. Whatever a woman can do I'm
ready to try, and I don't care, not the worth of a pin, whether it's a
place for a lady or not. O Aunt Jane, I beg your pardon. I know how good
you are--but charity! I can't bear the thought of charity. I must try my
own way."
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