"Yes," said Cicely, with a solemn paleness on her face. She felt the
humiliation too. "I shouldn't mind _doing_ things," she said, her voice
breaking a little; "it is what people will think. Us, a clergyman's
daughters! But what is the use even of that?" she cried; "it will do no
good now. Papa must leave Brentburn, and we have not a shilling, not a
penny now, to pay those things with. I think and think--but I cannot
tell what we are to do."
The two clung together in an agony of silence for a moment; how many
wringings of the heart have been caused by a little money! and so often
those who suffer are not those who are to blame. The ruin that seemed to
be involved was unspeakable to the two girls; they did not know what the
butcher and the baker might be able to do to them; nor did they know of
any way of escape.
"If there was any hope," said Cicely after a pause, "of staying here--I
would go round to them all, and ask them to take pity upon us; to let us
begin again paying every week, and wait till we could scrape some money
together for what is past. That, I think, would be quite possible, if we
were to stay; and we might take pupils----"
"To be sure," cried Mab, relieved, springing up with the easy hope of a
sanguine disposition, "and I might get something to do. In the meantime
I can finish my drawing. They have not stirred a bit, look, Cicely. They
are like two little white statues. It may be a pity that they were ever
born, as Aunt Jane says--but they are delightful models. I almost
think," Mab went on piously, working with bold and rapid fingers, "that
in all this that has happened there must have been a special providence
for me."
Cicely looked up with surprise at this speech, but she made no reply.
She was too full of thought to see the humour of the suggestion. Mab's
art furnished a delightful way of escape for her out of all perplexity;
but Cicely could only go back to the butcher's book. "What could we do,
I wonder," she said half to herself, for she did not expect any advice
from her sister, "about the living? Very likely they don't know anything
about poor papa. It may be very highminded never to ask for anything,"
said poor Cicely, "but then how can we expect that other people will
come and thrust bread into our mouths? It is better to ask than to
starve. As a matter of fact we cannot starve quietly, because if we are
found dead of hunger, there is sure to be a business in the papers, and
everything exposed. 'Death, from starvation, of a clergyman's family!'
That would make a great deal more fuss than quietly going and asking for
something for papa. I am not a bold girl--at least I don't think so,"
she cried, her soft face growing crimson at the thought, "but I would
not mind going to any one, if it was the Head of the College, or the
Lord Chancellor, or even the Queen!"
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