"The cottagers thought I was only trying to get them turned out," he
said. "They almost mobbed me once. I told them they should not take
lodgers and lodgers till every room was crowded. They are as bad as the
landlords; but, poor souls! it was easy to forgive them, for the
shilling or two they gained was such an object to them. I thought it
best to tell you; but there was really nothing in it, nothing to be
annoyed about. It was soon over. You, a young man, need not be
discouraged by any such episode as that."
"Mr. St. John, there is something which discourages me much more," said
Mildmay. "When I came yesterday to see Brentburn, I did not know you at
all. I had heard your name; that was all. I thought you were most likely
a man of my own standing, or younger----"
"As a curate ought to be," said Mr. St. John, once more shaking his
head. "Yes; I was saying to Cicely, it is almost a stigma upon a man to
be a curate at my age; but so it is, and I cannot help it. Perhaps if I
had not settled down so completely when I was young, if I had been more
energetic; I feel that now--but what good does it do? it is too late now
to change my nature. The children are the worst," he said, with a sigh,
"for they must come upon the girls." Then recovering himself with a
faint smile, "I beg your pardon, Mr. Mildmay, for going off with my own
thoughts. You said it discouraged you. Do you mean my example? You must
take it as a lesson and a warning, not as an example. I am very sensible
it is my own fault."
"I came to supplant you, to take your place, to turn you out of your
home," said Mildmay, finding it a kind of relief to his feelings to
employ Cicely's words, "and you received me like a friend, took me into
your house, made me sit at your table----"
The curate was startled by his vehemence. He laughed, then looked at him
half alarmed. "What should I have done else?" he said. "I hope you are a
friend. Supplant me! I have been here a great deal longer than I had any
right to expect. Of course, we all knew a new rector would come. The
girls, indeed, had vague notions about something that might be
done--they did not know what, poor things! how should they? But of
course from the first I was aware what must happen. No, no; you must not
let _that_ trouble you. I am glad, on the contrary, very glad, that the
people are going to fall into hands like yours."
"Poor hands," said Mildmay. "Mr. St. John, you may think it strange that
I should say this; but it is you who ought to be the rector, not me. You
ought to stay here; I feel it. If I come after all, I shall be doing a
wrong to the people and to you, and even to the Church, where such
things should not be."
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