Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; United States -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Women -- Fiction
Two or three chairs of various patterns stood under these pictures, and
slender bronze statues, each holding a gilded branch for lights in its
hand, poised themselves on either side of the window. In two of these
branches, wax candles, half consumed, still remained, while others had
burned low, leaving the sockets full of wax, now of a dull gray color.
As Catharine looked around, she felt the desolation of the change
oppressive, and half-closed the shutters, thus preserving the partial
gloom which seemed so congenial to the place.
Why was it that this scene of neglected splendor, this treasure of
intellectual wealth, half buried in the past, fell so gloomily on her
spirits? What was the room to her? And why was she there, except to
ascertain what capacities of home comfort the place afforded for her
unfortunate charge?
She could not answer these questions. Her heart beat heavily, and her
eyes grew dim with a sort of foreboding terror, as she looked around.
Yet a strange infatuation kept her in the room. She longed to know what
the books contained, by whom they had been collected, and by whom read.
This curiosity at last overcame the pressure upon her nerves. She arose,
and opening a fold of the shutters again, surveyed the room a second
time. It was early sunrise, and she had a full hour before Elsie would
awake, or the family be abroad.
As the light gradually flooded the room, she became self-possessed and
more resolute. The superstitious sensation, that had at first swept her
nerves, yielded to a feeling of imaginative curiosity. She opened one of
the bookcases almost with a feeling that it had life, and could be
pained with the sharp wrench which she was obliged to give the lock.
As I have said, the books were in various languages, and Catharine could
read but two, her native tongue and French, which she had caught up
almost without effort, by painful associations in early life with
persons to whom that language was most familiar; but she took down the
Italian, German, and Spanish authors, with that vague reverence which we
always feel for a thing beyond our comprehension, and was seized with a
quick thirst of the knowledge they contained.
Here was a new world for the young woman, a world of fresh sensations
and never-ending variety. She had fallen unawares upon a mine of
thought, unappropriated, beautiful thought, from which she might carry
away new life, and not diminish the original stock by a single idea.
Here was happiness! here was a solace for the baffled hopes and
recoiling affections that had burdened her soul so long. She would no
longer seek for joy among the living. The dead had left her the essence
of their lives, and she would read their books, she would learn all
these strange languages. She would live in the past lives of those who
had become benefactors to humanity, by gathering the immortality which
belongs to them from the past, for the benefit of generations yet to
come.
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