be thus between two ravening desires—a bird between two hawks, a fruit
between two mouths! It was a way of looking at things that had never
before occurred to him. The idea of a husband clutching at his wife, the
idea of that young man who looked so gentle, swooping down on her;
and the idea that if she faded, lost her looks, went off, their greed,
indeed, any man's, would die away—all these horrible ideas hurt him the
more for the remarkable suddenness with which they had come to him. A
tragic business! Dolly had said so. Queer and quick—were women! But his
resolution that the day was to be jolly soon recurred to him, and he
hastily resumed inspection of his fancy. Perhaps they ought to have a
ten-pound note on it, and they had better get back to the Stand! And as
they went the Colonel saw, standing beneath a tree at a little distance,
a young man that he could have sworn was Lennan. Not likely for an
artist chap to be down here! But it WAS undoubtedly young Lennan,
brushed-up, in a top-hat. Fortunately, however, his face was not turned
in their direction. He said nothing to Olive, not wishing—especially
after those unpleasant thoughts—to take responsibility, and he kept her
moving towards the gate, congratulating himself that his eyes had been
so sharp. In the crush there he was separated from her a little, but she
was soon beside him again; and more than ever he congratulated himself
that nothing had occurred to upset her and spoil the day. Her cheeks
were warm enough now, her dark eyes glowing. She was excited no doubt
by thoughts of the race, and of the 'tenner' he was going to put on for
her.
He recounted the matter afterwards to Mrs. Ercott. “That chestnut
Tabor put me on to finished nowhere—couldn't get down the hill—knew it
wouldn't the moment I set eyes on it. But the child enjoyed herself.
Wish you'd been there, my dear!” Of his deeper thoughts and of that
glimpse of young Lennan he did not speak, for on the way home an ugly
suspicion had attacked him. Had the young fellow, after all, seen and
managed to get close to her in the crush at the paddock gateway?
XIV
That letter of hers fanned the flame in Lennan as nothing had yet fanned
it. Earthiness! Was it earthiness to love as he did? If so, then not for
all the world would he be otherwise than earthy. In the shock of reading
it, he crossed his Rubicon, and burned his boats behind him. No more
did the pale ghost, chivalrous devotion, haunt him. He knew now that he
could not stop short. Since she asked him, he must not, of course, try
to see her just yet. But when he did, then he would fight for his life;
the thought that she might be meaning to slip away from him was too
utterly unbearable. But she could not be meaning that! She would never
be so cruel! Ah! she would—she must come to him in the end! The world,
life itself, would be well lost for love of her!
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