Male friendship -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
A list.... The other evening, when Tom had had a headache, David had
gone around smoking and whistling. Did David recall the time Tom had
brought _him_ his dinner? And the pique of David because Tom could not
join him and Cornelia on some insignificant walk. As if Tom had broken a
tryst. How David had his silences for a week, because of things like
that. Did David perhaps remember how he had honored Tom’s desire to see
him on his return from his vacation? honored it by dragging a dull
outsider along for dinner. Let David think of himself wiring so to Tom.
Perhaps he thought Tom’s silence meant he was not hurt that time when he
broke their theater date because he had forgotten it was Lois’
birthday....
“But you said you could easily find some one else.”
“Yes, David. I am not like you. I was afraid, if I made it hard for you,
I might spoil your evening. I put you at ease. The truth is, the tickets
went to waste. Yes, both of them. I had set my mind on that evening
belonging to us. Do you think I cared most about seeing Annie Russell? I
did not choose to go with some one else, on the occasion when I had
chosen to go with you. That night, if you want to know, I sat in the
Library of the Bar Association and read law. It was not my sense of
justice to spoil your evening which you had chosen to spend with your
cousin Lois, because you had chosen to spoil mine.”
“You know that isn’t fair! You know I went to the Deanes, because I had
to. Out of a sense of duty.”
“You have a sense of duty toward your frivolous cousins; none toward
your friend. I admire your distinctions.”
“But, Tom, they would all have been insulted!”
“Whether I was insulted had no importance....”
So it went. David was inexorably and forever in the wrong.
“Your cousins, your uncle, your aunt. I am to judge you care more for
them than for me. They mean more to you. Doubtless their ideas, also.”
He flayed David’s smugness: his cowardice: his failure to grow up.
David’s sentiment was perfunctory: his sensibilities were dull: he had
no recognition of what was going on in the minds and hearts of those who
should have been dear to him. Loving meant taking. Tom flung him
dolorously down to a level with that cousin whose company he had
preferred and loyalty to whom, as against Tom, he had elected. David
followed by the side of his tormentor, as by the side of fate....
Near where they lived was a little Square. It lay blue beneath the green
haze of the lamplights. It was timid there under the sweep of the City.
The buildings and the high flare of movement over the night made it deep
like a well. Tom and David paced round it. Their steps were harsh to
David as if in dissonance to the Square’s sweet reticence. They knew
they must have this out ere they passed through the door.
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