Male friendship -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
They were at war, but they were generous to each other. Their war was a
hidden and a sacred thing: it was not more nor less than the
confronting of themselves upon the path they had helped hew, had helped
each other walk. It was a hidden thing, but they had no desire to
conceal it. They were open to each other insofar as each could be. They
were the brother and sister who had waged life and war together.
“Do you think it is helping David--this ‘friendship’ that will always
be?”
“I have not your acute moral sense, Cornelia. How should I know?”
She bit her lips.
“Why,” he asked with his ironic smile, “why don’t you ask if it is
helping me!”
“You have made it plain to me, Tom, that you do not need my help. Out of
self-protection I had to withdraw thinking too much of that.”
He nodded as if he understood and agreed. This hurt Cornelia. Even the
words of contradiction would have been hostage to something precious.
“David is growing masterful. That much I can say for our friendship. I
told you how he turned Lunn and Durthal out of our place, one evening.
What I did not tell you was this: the following day David was contrite.
He wanted to apologize for the splendid thing he had done. I would not
let him.”
“Why?”
“What he did was himself. It is himself I care for. I will not let him
be a renegade to his own instincts.”
She laughed at him. It was an effort, turning her bitterness to
laughter.
“In the contradiction, you simply had a higher sort of triumph. Don’t
you think I understand? You labor to beat him down and break him. When
you see signs of your work you turn about. When you get him beaten and
broken at last, doubtless you will have no more use for him.”
“Doubtless, Cornelia.”
“Tom! Leave David alone!”
His cutting calm had parted her restraint. All of her fear threatened to
burst out. She was close to Tom, beseeching. In a moment, her hands
would be suppliant.
He let her plead.
“Do that for me, Tom. Leave him! Insult him! Turn him away!”
“I often try to. It’s no use. I can sustain no mood long enough for
that.”
She was blinded by his words into a sense of hope.
“Oh, a little longer! Send him to me. He never comes to me, now. He will
if you send him. I’ll help you, Tom.”
She stopped. She saw the folly of her outburst. Was there not war
between them? He was there with his irony.
“What have you, really, against our friendship? There is something
unreasonable in this. What is it? Of course, I shall send him to you. I
promise that.”
Never had she seen him so contained before her. He was winning. A
flourish and a dare in his promise to send him. She pressed her lips
with hands that had been almost suppliant before her brother. She would
accept his ironic bounty: turn it against him. Many a battle was lost
through excess of confidence. She could not answer his questions.
“You talk, positively, Sister, as if I were ruining the lad,--instead of
slowly bringing him up.”
“Bringing him up to what?”
“Well, to what? I ask you?”
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