Male friendship -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
She wanted to get up and take Helen’s hand and kiss it. She was her
David, looking at this woman. She wanted to kiss Helen’s eyes and tell
them what it was they would soon see. She forgot the Doctor. She no
longer saw him. So sure she was.
She sat there, full of her vision. “Nothing has happened. They need
never meet--unless you force it,” was a faint whisper she had no ears
for. She must go on in this greater ecstasy than she had ever known. She
must make her vision live. Who was she--Cornelia, or David? or was she
this sweet fresh girl with the loyal eyes? A great faint ease moved
through all her body, as if she were bleeding to death.
She had no words to say to Helen, nor to herself. She longed only to
touch her hair, kiss her eyes. David was to touch and to kiss them! Her
nerves, that had been taut and clear in the drunkenness of fasting,
slumbered now as if they had feasted. Her eyes were dim and saw no
further thing. She was indeed swathed warm and happy, like one bleeding
away and bathed in her own blood.
But nothing happened. She had no further sense of the room save that it
held her up: nor of the easy talk save that her knowledge of it let her
float slumberously, in the sea of her blood.
All her blood was outside her. It was no longer a beating surge within
the pent walls of her soul. She was emptied of desire and of pain.
She felt that something was to happen: there would come some proof to
her vision. She would look upon it sweetly as upon her death.
She awaited her death. She was smiling.
The bell rang. The door opened. David came in....
XIV
David had long intended to see Cornelia. Tom reminded him more than
once: reminded him perhaps a bit too often. There was a stubborn touch
in David. Something within him seemed to resist his going, and even he
knew moodily that the something was kin to Tom’s insistence. He had a
way of sallying forth on a Sunday afternoon, resolved to walk an hour
and then go to her place: and of forgetting. Until it was too late. He
would say: “Next time I will not forget.” At last the “next time” came
to be Thanksgiving.
He dined with the Deanes. He had no plans at all for after dinner. The
dinner would be big, he lazy. If his uncle offered him a cigar and Lois
was amiable, he might sit around all afternoon. He did not much care.
But his uncle had his erratic ways: in and out of business, one never
could tell about him. Doubtless the moody angles of Lois were due to her
father. Sometimes he would treat him as a man:
“Have a cigar, sir?” David accepted and liked this. Moreover the effect
of a cigar was always to make him heavy and sleepy: unfit either for
walking or a visit: in no heroic mood for visiting a friend toward whom
his sense of guilt made him uncomfortable.
Then again, his uncle would light his own cigar and forget him; perhaps
even say:
“Well, children, I am going to take a nap.... Run along.” He napped on
the dining-room sofa.
This happened on Thanksgiving.
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