Each of her letters contained a small statement of account, carefully
balanced. The first he had received was the one that pleased him best.
There was very much to tell. She had to relate her experiences--how she
went first to see Pansy, and was horrified at the change in her; how
she determined to act without delay, and informed the doctor over the
telephone that she meant to have another opinion. He was not pleased,
but was, as Dr. Danby foretold, obliged to consent. The doctors met,
and differed gravely; upon which she had formally placed herself and
the case in Dr. Danby's hands. Pansy was moved that day, and from the
first few hours showed symptoms of relief. Then had come the difficulty
with her mother. This she had solved without applying to Gaunt. She had
gone to her mother's rooms in Margaret Street, found that she and
Grover could both be taken in, and had moved thither accordingly. Her
exact explanations made him smile and grunt, and brought a moisture to
his eyes.
To this letter there had been a postscript. Under her signature these
words had been scrawled, as if on impulse:
_Thank you--oh, thank you!_
He had dwelt upon those words until he had half persuaded himself that
she must have perceived something of his remorse, and wished to
reassure him. The following letters from her had not, however, done
anything to foster this idea. He longed to write and tell her to go
back to the Langham, and take her mother there, to bid her choose
herself a fur motor-coat, and anything else she liked, but he
restrained all these impulses. He meant her to come back, if at all, as
she had departed, in the full persuasion of his cruelty and harshness,
to come back because her crystal honesty would not allow her to break
her promise, even to him.
With this end in view, he forced himself to write to her as curtly as
possible, signing himself "O. G." merely.
The missive he now held in his hand was no exception to his wife's
usual style. He read it, first with his customary feeling of
disappointment and heart-hunger, then with the succeeding glow of
reassurance, as he reached the little account of money expended.
Somehow he could read between the lines what an effort it was to her to
accept his help; it was done only because Pansy mattered so infinitely
more than she did; because Pansy must not suffer merely for the reason
that Virginia's pride would be hurt in the process of curing her.
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