It was in a mood of great depression that he set out with her upon the
day fixed. He was uncertain of everything--of her feeling, of his own
intentions, of Gerald's worth. The existing state of things, difficult
though it might be, was perilously sweet. There were hours when he told
himself that he was an utter fool, and that his present attitude was a
quixotry which bordered upon madness; yet there seemed no way to end
it. Every day of the footing upon which he and his wife now stood made
it more irrelevant, as it were, for him to turn from luke-warm
companion into ardent lover ... and when he tried to face what would be
his feeling if she rejected him, as she might--or worse still if, as
was more likely, she submitted to his love without returning it--he
felt that he simply did not dare risk it.
Virginia was quick to note his depression. The variability of his
spirits nowadays was more noticeable than he supposed. Sometimes her
light-hearted nonsense would beguile him into something like hilarity.
These moments were usually, as she was well aware, followed by a
corresponding withdrawal. She built all her hopes upon them, however,
for it seemed to her that in the period of reaction he never slipped
back quite so far into the realms of distance. It was an approach,
though a very gradual one. Like a rising tide, each wave fell back;
but, all the same, the flood mounted.
She chatted gaily as she sat beside him in the car, talking of the
matters which engrossed her--the garden and the house; also of an
invitation to the Chase to dine, which had lately been accepted. He
could not perceive that she manifested the least consciousness of being
on the way to meet her lover.
When they walked together into Joey's drawing-room, he was not so
certain. Rosenberg, in spite of self-command, betrayed a very obvious
embarrassment. If her feeling were doubtful, his was not. Her mere
presence in the room seemed to set him a-quiver.
Gaunt shook hands with him more easily, less grudgingly than on the
former occasion of their meeting. This surprised Gerald somewhat. He
had gone from that meeting straight to the address given him by Joey,
had seen Virginia, established an intimate footing of friendship, taken
her about in his car, and done other things which a newly made husband
would be most apt to resent. Yet Gaunt's greeting was almost kindly.
This disturbed Gerald. There must be one of two reasons for it. Either
he was so sure of his wife that he could afford to ignore other men, or
he knew more than he pretended to, and was on the watch, eager to take
his adversary off guard.
These thoughts produced considerable constraint in the young man's
manner to Virgie, whose gentle sweetness was much the same as usual.
"You made a surprisingly quick convalescence," he remarked, thinking
how delicious she was in her tailor suit of silver corduroy.
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