The Days of My Life: An AutobiographyOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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The Days of My Life: An Autobiography
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret), 1828-1897
Yes! I was in Cottiswoode. I was Edgar Southcote's wife; at this thought
my heart burned. I cannot express the fiery glow of pain which
overpowered me by any other words. Since I entered this fatal house, I
seemed to have lost sight of Harry. Harry my tender wooer, my loving
bridegroom, the nearest and dearest of all who were near and dear to me,
had disappeared like a dream. In his place stood my scorned and rejected
cousin, he whose compassion had sought me out to make amends to me for a
lost inheritance. A hundred circumstances came upon my mind now to
direct suspicion to him--his desire to take our name, oh! heaven protect
my name! it was no suggestion of his love--it was a mean and paltry lie!
and he had succeeded--there was the sting--and my father's words came
back upon me with a strange significance, but only to place my father
among the other conspirators against my peace. The bond of our marriage
lay upon our hearts and souls, for ever and for ever--for ever and for
ever--not even in thought or for a moment could I deliver myself from
this bondage--even when I died I would belong to him, and the very name
upon my grave-stone would be that of Edgar Southcote's wife.
I was passing up and down steadily, holding my hands clasped together. I
could not be still and think of these things. I could not remember with
composure where I was, and how I had been brought here. I went to the
window again, and as I raised my hand to my face, I felt upon my neck
the little chain with my mother's miniature--with a wild access of
indignation I snatched it off; now I understood why it was that this
connected him with my mother--that they found in my circumstances some
resemblance to those of my father's shipwrecked life. I did not dash it
now out of my hand as I was minded to do; with trembling fingers I put
it away out of my reach, where the placid smile of that mild face could
not drive me wild again. What could she or such as she understand of
this misery which I was enduring now?
At this moment some one knocked lightly at the door. I went at once and
opened it--it was himself. I looked full at him, to find out how I could
have been deceived. This was not my Harry. Harry was nothing but an
ideal, and he was gone. This was the boy, my cousin, whom I had met upon
the road some years ago, with his stooping figure and his timid step.
Once more in my injured and passionate strength, full of bitter
resentment and proud scorn, I stood firm by Edgar Southcote, and he
humbled, downcast, self-reproachful, stood like a culprit before me.
"May I come in, Hester?" he asked.
I gave way to him in a moment, but I could not do it without a bitter
word. "You are the master of the house--I have no right to admit or to
exclude any one here."
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