"But, papa, the Saviour--" I said, timidly, and in an agony of terror. "Ay, the Saviour--I believe in him, Hester, but I do not know Him!" said my father, in a hard and painful voice. "Yes--He has gone this road, they say. _He_ might take one by the hand in this mysterious journey--but I know him not." "Let me send for some one, father," I cried; "there are, surely, some who know. Let me send for a clergyman--papa, do not refuse me. He could tell us, and he could pray." "Telling would do me little service, Hester," said my father, faintly, with again that strange, awful smile upon his mouth; "it is not information I want. It is--ah! breath--breath!" A sudden spasm had seized him; he had been speaking too much, and he was worn out. I raised him up in my arms when I understood his gestures, that he might have air. How his breast heaved and panted with those terrible struggles! I supported him, but with nervous trembling arms. I feared the sight of this mortal suffering--it was dreadful to me--for I had never seen the anguish of the bodily frame before. When he was eased, and the spasm wore off, I laid him down exhausted. He was no longer able to speak; but as I watched him, I saw his eyes, in which shone all his mind, as clear and full as ever, untouched and independent of his malady, passing with a considerate and steady gaze from one part of the room to another. I could not comprehend this mood. Not with disquietude, nor with anxiety, did he ask, "Where?" He was neither disturbed nor unhappy; he seemed to have no fear. That smile had returned to his face; he still could be amused; and no human emotions seemed to break up his deep, deep calm. But I had no pleasure in seeing his composure. Horror, grief, distress, overpowered me as I sat watching him. Oh, that smile, that smile! Was this journey the only one in the world which a man should take composedly, without knowing where he was bound? I had the common youthful ideas about age, and deathbeds, and death. I gave the natural awe, the natural solemnity, to the wonderful termination, transition, change--the end of our life here--the beginning of the other world. It shocked and struck me with terror, to see him lie there upon the brink of it, asking "Where?" with a smile. I remembered all the common sayings about the death of good men. I remembered Addison's call to some one to come and see how a Christian could die. I wondered if there was ostentation in this, to set against the speculative amusement with which my father had spoken. Everything else was swept from my mind by this. I forgot the hard pressure of my own unhappiness, and it was only recalled to me for a moment when I thought of appealing to Harry, and with a shock and bitter pang recollected that I had no Harry now, but that only Edgar Southcote waited below--waited for the issue of this tragedy to take me home.