I made no answer--my mind was busied with my own projects--already in my mind I had begun my life of heroism and martyrdom at Cottiswoode. Already I washed the feet of the poor, and watched by the bedside of the plague-stricken. I did not pause to consider possibilities, nor ordinary rules; but followed up my own wild idea, in my own eager fashion. He waited for something further from me; but I said nothing to him, and after a little interval he went away. It was now Friday, and I had pledged myself to be ready on Monday to go to Cottiswoode. I went immediately to find Alice; I could perceive that she had been waiting with great anxiety the issue of our interview, though, absorbed as I was in my new thought, it did not immediately occur to me why--and when I went to her, Alice was quite nervous with expectation. "Do you think some one could be got quickly to keep the house, Alice?" said I, "do you think you could find some one to-day or to-morrow?" Her face lighted up suddenly. "To be sure I could, Miss Hester," said Alice; "but, dear, why?" "Because I have arranged to go home on Monday," said I, "to go home, Alice, to the duties of my life." "Bless you, darling!" she cried; but her color changed when she saw my unresponsive face; "it's not against your will, dear," she said timidly, "you're not forced to go, Miss Hester?" "_Forced?_ no! unless by my duty, which is there," said I. "I begin to see what is the use of me, Alice, or what should be, rather; for I have never been of use to any one. I must go to begin my work, there is the proper field for me--and now, when I know what it is, unhappiness will never prevent me from doing my duty." "Is that all, Miss Hester?" said Alice, with a wistful look--she was more disappointed than even _he_ had been. "Yes! that is all," said I, "what more should any one seek for? I wonder you never told me, Alice, how useless I was." "Has any one told you now?" said Alice, drawing herself up with a little flush of simple anger; "or, dear, what has put such a thought in your mind to-day?" "Not any one telling me," I answered; "but I see it very well, and clearly--perhaps, indeed, after all, I could not have done very much when I was a girl--it is different now; but, Alice, let us see what preparations we have to make, for there is very little time." "Yes, Miss Hester, directly," said Alice, taking up her bonnet. "I'll go and see after the old woman--don't you be waiting about the library, dear, it's a dreary place for you. Wouldn't you come out now your own self, Miss Hester, and breathe the air--Cambridge streets are no great things, I dare say, to them that's been in foreign countries and in London, but better than always moping in the house--come, darling--come yourself and see."