The Days of My Life: An AutobiographyOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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The Days of My Life: An Autobiography
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret), 1828-1897
entanglements of a novel, which a spark of good sense would dispel in a
moment--I forgot--though I was about the last person in the world to
whom such a forgetfulness should have been possible--that good sense
could not restore love, nor heal the bitterness of wounded affection. I
determined for my own part not to lose a moment, not even to think it
over, but to go direct to my husband at once, and say those same
half-dozen sensible, frank, good-humored words which should put an end
to it all; strange enough, my mind never misgave me as to the result.
I breakfasted in tolerably good spirits. I made no account of the
anxious looks of Alice; I was occupied with thinking of everything we
could do, of the world of possibilities which lay before us, if we were
but right with one another; how I could have lulled myself into ease so
long, I cannot tell. I awoke out of it all with a start and cry when I
heard the great clock strike twelve, and looking out--out of my lonely
chamber window, out of my new dreams--saw the broad country lying under
the broad, full, truthful sunshine; the morning mists dispersed and
broken, and the day come to its noon.
Noon! my bright figments perished in a moment: he had not come home, he
had not written nor sent any message; had he forsaken me, as I forsook
him?
I got up from my seat at once, feeling nevertheless as if some one had
stunned me by a sudden blow. Though Alice was in the room, I did not
make her my messenger, as it was my custom to do, but rang the bell
myself, ordered the carriage instantly, and put on my bonnet. Alice came
to help me without saying anything; my fears caught double confirmation
from her silence. Something must have happened! she never asked where I
was going, nor if she should accompany me, yet helped me to get ready as
if I had told her all my thoughts.
"Where did he say he was to go?" I asked under my breath.
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