The Days of My Life: An AutobiographyOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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The Days of My Life: An Autobiography
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret), 1828-1897
Yes! there was the dim garden underneath, with the trees rising up
solemnly in the pale summer night, and all the color and the light gone
out of this flowery little world. There were the lights in the little
gleaming windows of Corpus like so many old friends smiling at me. I had
come home to my own familiar room; but I was not the same Hester
Southcote, who had lived all her life in this environment. In my heart,
I brought another with me into my girlish bower. The idea of him
possessed all my thoughts--his words came rushing back, I think almost
every one of them, into my ears. I dropped upon my seat with the shawl
he had placed there still upon me, without removing my bonnet or doing
anything. I sat down and began to live it over again, all this magical
night. It stood in my memory like a picture, so strange, so beautiful,
so true! could it be true? Did he think me the first, above all others?
and all these words which sent the blood tingling to the very fingers he
had clasped, had he really spoken them, and I listened? and all this
wonderful time had been since I left the little dark room, where I had
even now again to look at my altered fate. All the years before were
nothing to this single night.
And then I remembered where he was, and how occupied now. He was telling
my father--asking my father to give up his only child.
My father was ill--in danger of his life--and was I willing to leave him
alone? but then the proud thought returned to me--not to leave him
alone--to add to him a better companion than I, a friend, a son, a man
of nature as lofty as himself; but I was not willing to enter into
details, and as I thought upon the interview going on so near me, I grew
nervous once more. Then I heard a step softly approaching my door. Then
a light gleamed through it, and I went to open it with a great tremor.
It was Alice, with a light, and she said my father had sent for me to
come to him now.
Alice did not ask me why I sat in the dark with my bonnet on; instead of
that she helped to take off my walking dress, and kept her eyes from my
face, in her kindness--for she must have seen how the color went and
came, how I trembled, and how much agitated I was. She brushed back my
hair with her own kind hands, and took a rose out of a vase on the
table, and fastened it in my dress.
I had been so full of my own thoughts, that I had not observed these
roses, but I knew at once when she did this. They were from my own tree
at Cottiswoode. I did not ask Alice how she got them, yet I had pleasure
in the flower. It reminded me of my mother--my mother--if I had a mother
now!
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