The Days of My Life: An AutobiographyOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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The Days of My Life: An Autobiography
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret), 1828-1897
My father was just at the door, when at last he left me. There was a
brief leave-taking between them; and then I heard his rapid step
descending the stair, and my father entered the room. I had gone to my
usual seat at the table, and scarcely ventured to look up as he entered.
I thought he hesitated for a moment as he stood at the door looking in
upon me. Perhaps he thought of giving me a kinder greeting; but, if he
did, he conquered the impulse, and came quietly to his chair opposite
me, and, without saying a word, took his place there, and closed the
book which had been lying open upon the table. Then he spoke. My heart
beat so loud and wild that it almost took away my breath. He was my
father--my father! and I wanted to throw myself at his feet, and pour
out all my heart to him. I wanted to say that I never desired to leave
_him_--never! and that I would rather even give up my own happiness than
forsake him now.
He gave me no opportunity; he spoke in his grave, calm tone of
self-possessed and self-commanded quietness, which chilled me to the
heart. "Hester!" he said, "I have been listening to a young man's
love-tale. He is very fervid, and as sincere as most youths are, I have
no doubt. He says he has thought of nothing but how to win you, since we
first admitted him here; and he says that you have promised him your
hand if he can gain my consent. I have no doubt you recollect, Hester,
the last conversation we had on this subject. You have chosen for
yourself, what you would not permit me to choose for you, and I hope
your choice will be a happy one. I have given my consent to it. What he
says of his means seems satisfactory; and I waive the question of
family, in which his pretensions, I presume, are much inferior to your
own. But I earnestly desire that you should have a proper protector,
Hester! and I give my consent to your marriage, on condition--" he
paused, and I glanced up at him, I know not with what dismayed and
apprehensive glance; for his solemn tone struck me with terror: "on
condition," he continued, with a smile. "Do not fear--it is nothing very
terrible--on condition that your marriage takes place within three weeks
from this time."
"Papa!"
I started to my feet, no longer shrinking and embarrassed. Oh! it was
cruel--cruel! To seize the first and swiftest opportunity to thrust me
from him, while he was ill, perhaps dying, and when he knew how great my
anxiety was. I could not speak to him; I burst into a passionate fit of
tears. I was wounded to the heart.
"I suppose it is natural that you should dislike this haste, Hester,"
said my father, in a slightly softened tone; "I can understand that it
is something of a shock to you; but I cannot help it, my love. The
circumstances are hard, and so is the necessity. I yield to you in the
more important particulars; you must yield to me in this."
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