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“Still, you need not have turned away from me as you did, without a
word. You might have given me a word, a smile, a look.”
Rachel’s breath came quickly, her face softened, her eyes grew tender,
and she whispered--
“I didn’t dare!”
The words were an admission, and in a moment Gerard was close beside
her, looking into her face, begging her not to play with him.
“You love me, Rachel, you love me, and not this fellow! Why don’t you
own it? Why can’t you throw him over, and tell him and everyone that
you care for me, that you’re going to marry me? Don’t worry your head
about your career, about money, about anything. I can’t make you rich
at once, but I’m not quite a pauper even now. You will have to make
some sacrifices, but they won’t be so hard. Your mother will not mind
living in a smaller house, and your sister has had a year’s schooling,
and Lady Jennings will take charge of her, and bring her out and
all that. Even for your family there’s no need for you to sacrifice
your own happiness any longer. Rachel, Rachel, say that you will cut
yourself off from all these people whom you hate and whom you are
afraid of, and make up your mind to be happy.”
She was deeply moved by his passionate words, and her tears were
falling fast. But she was steadfast, even in her sorrow.
“I can’t,” she said. “You mustn’t ask me why, but I can’t. I know I’ve
been selfish to ask you to come to speak to me, but I couldn’t let you
go like that--thinking I was like a stone. I’m involved--too deeply to
get free. There--that’s all I dare tell you. And now you had better try
to forget me; it’s the only thing to do. I’ve thought it over, indeed,
and I can’t get free, and I can’t move independently.”
This admission passionately uttered, was a terrible shock to Gerard.
“But what will the end be--it must have an end?” he asked quickly.
She turned upon him a look of intense alarm.
“An end! What do you mean?”
He spoke out boldly--
“You don’t suppose it can go on forever? That the mystery will never
be found out? That you can go on forever escaping by the skin of your
teeth?”
A faint smile, confident if not very happy, appeared on her features.
“I’m in clever hands, very clever hands,” she said.
“But the work revolts you! It’s horrible--shocking!”
“Well, we won’t discuss that now. I’ve told you before all that I could
tell you about it. There’s Arthur coming for me. I must go.”
“One moment. Tell me honestly: would you give everything up and marry
me, if you could?”
She hesitated.
“I don’t know whether I dare answer you truly; but I will--if you will
promise to take no advantage of what I say.”
“I promise.”
“Well then, yes, I would throw over everything--if I could.”
He touched her arm trembling and hoarse.
“Now promise me just this, that you will make one appeal--one strong
appeal--this week, at once, and try to get free; and let me know if you
succeed. You will, if your heart is set on it, I know.”
She shook her head drearily.
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