"Aw, the Deemster's made many a man toe the mark, but I'm thinking he'll
have to stand to it when the big day comes. I'll go bail the ould
polecat's got summat to answer for in this consarn."
Dan said nothing. Alone, and giving no sign, he still sat on the hatches
near where the body lay, and, a little to aft of him, Davy Fayle was
stretched out on the deck. The lad's head rested on one hand, and his
eyes were fixed with a dog's yearning look on the dark outlines of Dan's
figure.
They were doubling the Point of Ayre, when suddenly the wind fell to a
dead calm. The darkness seemed to grow almost palpable.
"More snow comin'--let the boat driff," said old Billy Quilleash, and
the men turned into the cabin, only Dan and the body, with Davy, the
lad, remaining on deck.
Then, through the silence and the blank darkness, there was the sound of
large drops of rain falling on the deck. Presently there came a torrent
which lasted about ten minutes. When the rain ceased the darkness lifted
away, and the stars came out. This was toward two o'clock, and soon
afterward the moon rose, but before long it was concealed again by a
dense black turret-cloud that reared itself upward from the horizon.
When Dan stepped aboard a dull, dense aching at his heart was all the
consciousness he had. The world was dead to him. He had then no clear
purpose of concealing his crime, and none of carrying out the atonement
that Mona had urged him to attempt. He was stunned. His spirit seemed to
be dead. It was as though it could awake to life again only in another
world. He had watched old Billy when he whispered into Ewan's deaf ear
the words of the mystic charm. Without will or intention he had followed
the men when they came to the boat. Later on a fluttering within him
preceded the return of the agonizing sense. Had he not damned his own
soul forever? That he had taken a warm human life; that Ewan, who had
been alive, lay dead a few feet away from him--this was nothing to the
horrible thought that he himself was going, hot and unprepared, to an
everlasting hell. "Oh, can this thing have happened?" his bewildered
mind asked itself a thousand times as it awoke as often from the
half-dream of a paralyzed consciousness. Yes, it was true that such a
thing had occurred. No, it was not a nightmare. He would never awake in
the morning sunlight and smile to know that it was not true. No, no,
true, true, true it was, even until the Day of Judgment, and he and Ewan
stood once more face to face, and the awful voice would cry aloud, "Go,
get thee hence."
Then Dan thought of Mona, and his heart was nigh to breaking. With a
dumb longing his eyes turned through the darkness toward the land, and
while the boat was sailing before the wind it seemed to be carrying him
away from Mona forever. The water that lay between them was as the river
that for all eternity would divide the blessed and the damned.
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