New York (State) -- Fiction; West (U.S.) -- Fiction
“I want to finish now,” she said, “and never speak of this again. It was
I who accused them first--and then I asked him:--if there was anything
he could say in their defense, to say it, for Chrissy's sake! 'I will
never break bread with them again,' said he,--'either Banks or Horace.
I will not eat with them, or drink with them, or speak with them again!'
Think of it! How are we to live? How are they to inhabit the same
city? He thinks I have been weak. I am weak! The only power I have is
through--the property. Banks will never marry a poor girl. But that
would be a dear-bought victory. Let her keep what faith in him she can.
No; in families, the ones who can control themselves have to give in--to
those who can't. If you argue with Christine she simply gives way, and
then she gets hysterical, and then she is ill. It's a disease. Mothers
know how their children--Christine was marked--marked with trouble! I
am thankful she has any mind at all. She needs me more than Paul does. I
cannot be parted from my power to help her--such as it is.”
“When she is Banks Bowen's wife she will need you more than ever!” said
Moya.
“She will. I could prevent the marriage, but I am afraid to. I am
afraid! So, as the family is cut in two--in three, for I--” Mrs. Bogardus
stopped and moistened her lips again. “So--I think you and Paul had
better make your arrangements and go as soon as you can wherever it
suits you, without minding about the rest of us.”
Moya gave a little sobbing laugh. “You don't expect me to make the first
move!”
“Doesn't he say anything to you--anything at all?”
“He is too ill.”
“He is not ill!” Mrs. Bogardus denied it fiercely. “Who says he is ill?
He is starved and frozen. He is just out of the grave. You must be good
to him, Moya. Warm him, comfort him! You can give him the life he needs.
Your hands are as soft as little birds. They comfort even me. Oh, don't
you understand!”
“Of course I understand!” Moya answered, her face aflame. “But I cannot
marry Paul. He has got to marry me.”
“What nonsense that is! People say to a girl: 'You can't be too cold
before you are married or too kind after!' That does not mean you and
Paul. If you are not kind to him _now_, you will make a great mistake.”
“He is not thinking of marriage,” said Moya. “Something weighs on him
all the time. I cannot ask him questions. If he wanted to tell me he
would. That is why I come downstairs and leave him. But he won't come
down! Is it not strange? If we could believe such things I would say a
Presence came with, him out of that place. It is with him when I find
him alone. It is in his eyes when he looks at me. It is not something
past and done with, it is here--now--in this house! _What_ is it? What
do _you_ believe?”
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