The deserted wifeSouthworth, Emma Dorothy Eliza Nevitte
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The deserted wife
Southworth, Emma Dorothy Eliza Nevitte
American fiction -- 19th century; Maryland -- Fiction
“And you have no right to express it _now_! sir,” exclaimed the mad
girl, with the fire flaming in her eyes. “No right to express it _now_!
_what_ right have you _now_, more than you ever had over me? None that I
acknowledge! None that I will bear to have you assume! None, Raymond!
_none!_ All love! all compliance that I yield you now I would have
yielded you before! and you know it! you know it! of my own free will!
of my own glorious free will!—not from constraint! God in Heaven! you
exasperate—you madden me—by attempts at constraint! Raymond! what do you
mean by this? I do not like it. No! I will turn away, I will not look at
your cold, spirit-killing eyes. I will not let your cold, damping,
implacable will extinguish my life and soul as the rain puts out the
fire. _I_ have a will! and tastes, and habits, and propensities! and
loves and hates! yes, and conscience! that all go to make up the sum
total of a separate individuality! a distinct life! for which _I alone_
am accountable, and _only_ to God! How weak and worthless would my
obedience to God be if it were fettered through a submission to _any_
lower will. No, I will _not_ bear to have you assume any right over my
freedom of action, and I shall take my favorites with me to the North.”
A sarcastic smile fluttered around the beautiful lips and gleamed under
the golden eye-lashes of Raymond Withers as he slightly raised his hat
from his head with a mock bow, and sauntered away from her side, quoting
for her benefit the very last clause of Genesis iii. and 16. It only
needed his sarcasm to exasperate the girl to phrensy. She snapped and
ground her teeth together, and stamped with both little feet, springing
to the ground as though they would take root there—while anger rocked
and flamed to and fro in her bosom like a sea of fire lashing its
shores. Suddenly—veiling her flashing eyes and setting her gleaming
teeth with a look of resolution, she went to the stables and calling
Tarquinius, bade him saddle Starlight.
“We will have another day together, my old friends,” said she, as the
horse neighed joyously, and the dogs bounded around her each in
intelligent anticipation; and in ten minutes from this Hagar was flying
over the heath towards the forest attended by her favorites.
The sun was setting in golden glory as Hagar rode into the yard at Heath
Hall, sprang from her horse, and throwing the reins to Tarquinius walked
leisurely towards the house, smiled and bowed salutation to the company
assembled to enjoy the evening air in the piazza, and passed on into the
Hall—Sophie followed her, and with the tears welling up to her eyes
exclaimed,
“Oh! Hagar, what have you done?”
Hagar threw up her little glittering head of ringlets and replied with
laughing defiance,
“I have been taking one of my old days among the hills! I wished to feel
my freedom a little, that is all! I have been galled by the too close
pressure of my chains lately, and have broken them through for once,
that’s all.”
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