DEAR DICK,--There is no use keeping up this senseless farce any longer.
I am sick to death with my very existence. I have been hungry for love
all my life, and never had it. When I married I mistreated the only man
I ever cared for, and I have resolved to do so no longer. Andy and I
are leaving together. God only knows if we shall find the happiness we
are seeking, but we are going to try. Father thinks I have gone to the
Hardys'. Perhaps he may as well be kept in ignorance for a few days
longer. The truth will leak out soon enough. Though you may do as you
like about this. As for your following us and making things unpleasant,
I have no fears, for, as you well know, I am entitled to my liberty in
this matter. You have certainly not been molested by me in your own
private life. I now know all about the cottage in the outskirts of
town, but I am not blaming you in the least. I confess that I thought
you had ceased your attentions in that quarter, but that was because I
attributed a certain spiritual and remorseful quality to you which you
do not possess. I am not blaming you at all--_at all_. In fact, somehow
the discovery has had a soothing effect on me. It has confirmed the
feeling that both you and I have been and are the mere playthings of
Fate. As I see it, I am doing my duty. I led poor Andy on before my
marriage. I kissed him--I've kissed him a thousand times, both before
and since my marriage. He can't live without me, and I can't live
without his love and future companionship. Life is too short to spend
it in the sheer misery I have been in of late. He and I are going out
into the great world to live, enjoy, and die together. People will
talk, but we can't help that--the truth is, we don't care. You will
blame me for leaving the child, for you do love him, but I can't help
that. He was born out of love, and was always a reproach to me. You
will take care of him; I know that, and better than if I were there.
Good-by. IRENE.
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