A little later Saunders left for the meeting. Mostyn saw him pass out
at the gate under the starlight. The bell was ringing. Mostyn recalled
the night he had gone with Dolly to a meeting of like nature, and the
impression her speech had made on him.
"All that is past--gone like a wonderful dream," he mused. "In feeling
I am an old man, bowed and broken under the blind errors of life.
Saunders and I are near the same age. Look at him; look at me; he walks
like a young Greek athlete. I have nothing to expect, nothing to hope
for. My wife died despising me; my friends merely bear with me out of
pity; my boy is dead; I have to die--all living creatures have to die.
What does the whole thing mean? It really must have a meaning, for many
great minds have seen nothing but beauty in it, not even excluding
sorrow, pain, and death. There must be an unpardonable sin, and I have
committed it. Some say that all wrong-doers may get right--I wonder if
there is a chance for me, _a single chance?_ No, no, I am sure there is
none--none whatever. But, oh, if only I could see my boy alive again! I
would be willing to suffer any torment for that, but better still--if
only he might be immortal--if only he could live forever in happiness
on some other plane, as good people believe, I'd ask nothing for my
part--absolutely nothing! I brought him into the world. I am
responsible for his marvelous being. I'd give my soul to save his--I
would--I would--I would!"
He went to bed. He said no prayer. He accepted his lot without any idea
that it might be otherwise. The night was profoundly still. He heard
singing. It was at the meeting-house. Softened by distance, the music
was most appealing. It seemed to float above the tree-tops, touch the
clouds, and fall lightly to earth. His mind, weighted down by care,
induced slumber. Dream-creatures flocked about him. He was a child
romping in a meadow over new-mown hay. He had a playmate, but he could
not see his face; it was ever eluding him. Suddenly he ran upon the
child, and with open arms clasped him to his breast. The child laughed
gleefully, as children do when caught in such games. It was little
Dick. He held him tightly, fearing that he would get away. He spoke
soothingly and yet anxiously. Endearing words rippled from his lips.
Presently his arms were empty. Little Dick was gone, and standing near,
a scowl of hate on his face, was old Henderson, who was shaking fierce
fingers at the dreamer.
"Retribution!" he cried. "Retribution! Now it is your time--your time
to suffer, and I am appointed to lay on the lash!"
Mostyn waked. The moonlight was shining in at the window. In the
distance he heard voices. They were coming nearer. Standing at a
window, Mostyn saw Saunders and Tobe Barnett as they were parting at
the gate.
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