"You have done no such thing!" Mrs. Moore blurted out. "That is the
pity of it--the absurdity of it. You haven't made up your mind--that is
just exactly what you haven't done. You thought you had, I don't doubt,
when you said good-by to her, but already you are full of doubt, and in
a frightful stew. You show it in your face. You know and I know that
you cannot carry that thing through. You are not that type of man.
Jarvis Saunders could. If he ever marries, he will marry like that. It
wouldn't surprise me to see him walk off any day with some
stenographer, with nothing but a shirt-waist for a trousseau, but
you--_you_--Oh, Lord! You are quite a different proposition."
"You think you know me, Bess, but--"
"I am the only person who _does_ know you," she broke in. "I have
watched you since you were in the cradle. When you were ten you fell in
love with a little girl and cried when she fell and bruised her nose.
You have imagined yourself in love dozens of times, and have learned
nothing from it. But we are losing time. Tell me one thing, and let's
be done with it. Have you engaged yourself to this _new_ one?"
"No, but--"
"Thank God for the 'but,' and let it go at that," she laughed, more
freely. "I understand why you didn't better than you do. You doubted
your own feelings. You thought you would for once in your life think it
over."
"It was not that which held me back."
"I know; it was Irene Mitchell, her fine prospects, and your natural
good horse sense. Dick, you couldn't carry that silly dream through to
save your life. You are not made that way. Suppose you really married
that little country thing. What would you do with her? Well, I'll tell
you. You would break her heart--that's what you'd do. You couldn't fit
her into your life if you were deity itself and she were an archangel.
She seemed perfect up there in her Maud Muller surroundings, but here
in this mad town she would be afraid of you, and you would--ask her to
keep her finger out of her mouth. Why, you would be the joke of every
soul in Atlanta. Mr. Mitchell would despise you. You would lose his
influence. In fact, my dear boy, you have gone too far with Irene
Mitchell to turn back now. You may not be actually engaged to her, but
she and everybody else consider it settled. For you to marry any one
else now--to turn a woman like Irene down, after the way you have
acted--would ruin you socially. The men would kick you out of your
club. You'd never hold your head up afterward. Oh, I'm glad I got at
you this morning. It would be a crime against that mountain child to
bring her here on account of your--Dick, I have to speak plainly, more
plainly than I ever did before. But it is for your good. Dick, passion
is the greatest evil on earth. It has wrought more harm than anything
else. Passion often fools the wisest of men. To be plain, you think, or
thought, that you loved that pretty girl, but you do not and did not.
It was simply passion in a new and more subtle dress.
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