The diary of a Russian lady : $b reminiscences of Barbara Doukhovskoy (née princesse Galitzine)Dukhovskaia, Varvara
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The diary of a Russian lady : $b reminiscences of Barbara Doukhovskoy (née princesse Galitzine)
Dukhovskaia, Varvara
Russia -- Social life and customs; Voyages and travels
In May we moved to Petrovski Palace, and on the last days of June
Sergy went to review the troops at Yaroslaw. During his absence, I was
invited by my aunt, Princess Leon Galitzine, to spend a week with her
at Doubrovo, her splendid estate situated in the government of Kalouga.
I welcomed the opportunity that was offered to me and accepted my
aunt’s invitation with pleasure. Another aunt of mine, Princess Safira
Galitzine, was also going to Doubrovo and proposed to chaperon me. On our
way there, great was my surprise to meet at one of the railway stations,
Stenger, one of my old admirers of whom I had not heard for years. We
both gave a violent start, and I uttered an exclamation of surprise:
“Where on earth did you fall from?” I asked.
My appearance nearly deprived Stenger of speech, then he took my hand
and devoured it with kisses, much to the indignation of my aunt who was
of the opinion that a married woman shares the dignity of her husband
and, like Cæsar’s wife, should be above suspicion of even the slightest
flirtation. Whilst we paced up and down the platform, a pretty flood of
eloquence rose to Stenger’s lips, and I was aware that the constancy of
his heart was as great as ever, and that he was still my devoted servant.
He said with a quiver in his voice, looking me full in the face and
nervously tormenting his very slight moustache, that after my marriage
he had been moved to the desperate resolution to marry also; but it did
not help him to forget me, and that all these years he did his best to
tear the thought of me out of his heart and could not. But I didn’t love
him, all the difference was there. I only shrugged indifferent shoulders
and responded to his passionate eloquence with six degrees of frost.
“Fiddle-de-dee! old times are better left alone,” I replied, looking
upon his dismayed countenance with a cheerfulness which rather hurt his
feelings.
“Why do you treat me like this?” asked poor Stenger, looking very
miserable and crestfallen. Really I am afraid I’ve been rather rude, to
hurt anybody was quite contrary to my nature; I called myself a monster
of ingratitude and tried to be more friendly towards him. I ought to be
grateful indeed for he was a faithful being! Wishing, nevertheless, to
get away from my impetuous lover, I hastened into my car. In bidding
good-bye, Stenger captured my hands and squeezed them so horribly that
he left the print of my rings on my fingers. He stood in a drooping
attitude under my window, staring at me with eyes objectionably mournful
and looking the very picture of despair. The train moved on and Stenger’s
pale face was lost to sight; life had separated us for the second time!
He was completely brushed away from my memory, and the whole episode fell
away from my mind like breath from a mirror.
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