I saw the time of my return to the château approach with pleasure. At
least I could live there among my memories. But a terrible blow awaited
me, which was given me by the marquis on my arrival.
“Good news,” said he as soon as he saw me. “Charlotte is better. And
there is more just as good. She is going to be married. Yes, she
accepts M. de Plane. It is true, you do not know him, a friend of André
whom she refused once, and now she is willing.” And he continued, going
back to himself as usual: “Yes, it is very good news, for, you see, I
have not much longer to live. I am broken, very much broken.”
He might detail to me his imaginary ills, analyze his stomach as much
as he wished, his gout, his intestines, his heart, his head--I listened
no more than a condemned man to whom his sentence has been announced
listens to the words of his jailer. I saw only the fact so painful to
me. You who have written some admirable pages upon jealousy, my dear
master, and upon the ravages which the thought alone of the caress of a
rival produces in the imagination of a lover, can divine what smarting
poison this news poured into my wound.
May, June, July, August, September--nearly five months since Charlotte
had gone, and this wound instead of healing had become enlarged,
poisoned until this last stroke which finished me. This time I did not
have the cruel consolation that my suffering was shared. This marriage
proved to me that she was cured of her sentiment for me, while I was
agonized by mine for her.
My fury was exasperated at the thought that this love had been snatched
from me just at the moment I was about to be able to develop it in
its fullness, at the very time of decisive action. I saw Charlotte in
Paris, where M. de Plane was passing his leave of absence, receiving
her _fiancé_ in the partial _tête-à-tête_ with a familiarity
permitted under the indulgent eyes of the marquise. They were for this
man now, these smiles at once proud and timid, these tender and anxious
looks, these passages of paleness and modest red over her delicate
face, these gestures of a grace always a little wild.
Finally she loved him, since she was willing to marry him. And he
seemed to me like Count André whose detestable influence I found
even here, and whom I again hated in the _fiancé_ of his sister
confounding these two gentlemen, these two elders, these two officers,
in the same furious antipathy. Vain and puerile anger which I took with
me into the wood already reclothed with those vague tints which would
soon change to russet.
The swallows were assembling for their departure. As the hunting season
had begun there was firing all around them, and frightened, they rose
in a flight such as that by which the wild bird had escaped which I had
thought to bring down some day.
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