She loved me. This certainty, after so long a period of doubt and
anxiety, inundated my heart with a flood of joy, so that I was almost
overcome, there, on the carpet of the staircase which I must also climb
to go to my room. What was I to do? With my elbows on the table and
pressing my hands against my forehead to repress the throbbing of my
temples I put this question without finding any other answer than that
I could not go away; that absence and silence could not end all between
Charlotte and myself; finally that we were approaching an hour in which
so many reciprocal efforts, hidden struggles, combated desires on the
part of both, was precipitating us toward a supreme scene, and this, I
could feel was near, tragic, decisive, inevitable.
At first Charlotte was constrained to submit to my presence. We must
meet at the bedside of her brother, and the very morning of her
arrival, when it was my turn to keep the invalid company, toward
eleven o’clock, I found her there talking with him, while the marquise
questioned Sister Anaclet, both speaking in low tones and standing
near the window.
Lucien, from whom the coming of his mother and sister had been
concealed, showed in his face and in his gestures the excited and
almost feverish joy which is seen in convalescents; he saluted me with
his gayest smile, and taking my hand said to his sister:
“If you only knew how good M. Greslon has been to me all these days!”
She did not reply, but I saw that her hand, which lay on the pillow
near her brother’s cheek, shook as with a chill. She made an effort to
look at me without betraying herself. Without doubt my face expressed
an emotion that touched her. She felt that to leave unnoticed the
innocent remark of her brother would make me feel badly, and, in the
voice of past days, her sweet and living voice, she said, without
addressing me directly:
“Yes, I know it and I thank him for it. We all thank him very much.”
She did not add another word. I am sure that if I had taken her hand at
that moment she would have fainted before me, she was so moved by this
simple conversation.
I stammered a vague response: “It is quite natural,” or something
similar. I was not very collected myself. Lucien, however, who had
noticed neither the altered tone of his sister, nor my embarrassment,
continued:
“And isn’t André coming to see me?”
“You know he has gone back to his regiment,” said she.
“And Maxime?” insisted the child. I knew that this was the name of the
_fiancé_ of Mlle. de Jussat. These two syllables had no sooner
left the lips of her brother than the paleness of her face gave way to
a sudden wave of blood. There was an interval of silence during which I
could hear the murmuring of Sister Anaclet, the crackling of the fire
in the chimney, the swinging of the pendulum, and the child himself
astonished at this silence.
“Yes, Maxime, is not he coming either?”
“M. de Plane has also gone back to his regiment,” said Charlotte.
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