“I do not know, monsieur. Monsieur has not used it since I came into
the house.”
“Go and get it,” said the philosopher. Mariette obeyed. She brought
from a loft which served as lumber-room and woodhouse together a small,
dusty leather trunk, with rusty locks and keys entirely lacking.
“Very well,” said M. Sixte, “you may go and buy a little one like
that, immediately, and you may put into it whatever is necessary for a
journey.”
“Is monsieur going away?” asked Mariette.
“Yes,” said the philosopher, “for a few days.”
“But monsieur has nothing that he needs,” insisted the old servant,
“monsieur cannot go away like that, without any traveling rugs,
without----”
“Procure what is needed,” interrupted the philosopher, “and hasten--I
take the train at nine o’clock.”
“And is it necessary that I accompany monsieur.”
“No, that is useless,” said M. Sixte, “come, you have no time to lose.”
“Oh! if he only does not think of killing himself,” said Carbonnet when
Mariette had told of this new move, almost as extraordinary in this
little corner of the world as if the philosopher had announced his
marriage.
“Ah!” said the servant, following up his idea, “if he only would take
me with him! If I have to pay out of my own pocket, I will go.”
This sublime cry, in the mouth of a creature who had come from Péaugres
in Ardèche, to be a servant and who carried economy so far as to
make her home dresses from the old redingotes of the savant, will
demonstrate better than any analysis what uneasiness the metamorphosis
of this man who was passing through a moral crisis, which was terrible
for him, inspired in these humble people.
Not realizing that he was observed, he showed the intensity of it in
his slightest gestures as well as in the features of his face. Since
the death of his mother he had not known such unhappy hours, and
the suffering inflicted by the irreparable separation was entirely
sentimental; but the reading of Robert Greslon’s memoir had attacked
him in the center of his being, his intellectual life, his sole reason
for living.
At the moment he gave Mariette the order to prepare his valise, he was
as much overcome by fright as on the night he turned over the pages of
the notebook of confidences. This fright began from the first pages of
this narrative in which a criminal aberration of mind was studied, as
if spread out for display, with such a mixture of pride and of shame,
of cynicism and of candor, of infamy and of superiority.
At meeting the phrase in which Robert Greslon had declared himself
united to him by a cord as close as it was unbreakable, the great
psychologist had trembled, and he had trembled at every repetition of
his name in this singular analysis, at every citation of one of his
works, which proved the right of this abominable libertine to call
himself his pupil.
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