To speak frankly, I am a civilized being, he is only a barbarian.
But I felt immediately the sensation that my refinement was less
aristocratic than his barbarism. I felt there, at once, and in the
depths of this instinct of life, into which the mind descends with much
difficulty, the revelation of this precedence of race which modern
science affirms of all nature and which, by consequence, must be true
also of man.
Why even use this word envy, which serves as the label of irrational
hostilities like those with which the count immediately inspired
me? Why should not this hostility be inherited like the rest? Any
human acquisition whatever, that for example of character and of
active energy, implies that, during centuries and centuries, files
of individuals of which one is the supreme addition, have acted and
willed. During this long succession of years, an antipathy, sometimes
clear and sometimes obscure, has rendered the individuals of the first
group odious to individuals of the second, and when two representatives
of this sovereign labor of ages, also typical each in his kind as were
the count and myself, meet, why not stand up the one in face of the
other, like two beasts of different species?
The horse that has never been near a lion trembles with fright when
his bed is made of the straw upon which one of these creatures has
slept. Then fear is inherited, and is not fear one form of hate? Why
is not all hate inherited? And in hundreds of cases envy would be, as
it surely was in mine, only the echo of hates formerly felt by those
whose sons we are, and who continue to pursue, through us, the combats
of heart begun centuries ago.
There is a current proverb that antipathies are mutual, and if it
is admitted my hypothesis upon the secular origin of antipathies
becomes very simple. It happens, however, that this antipathy does not
manifest itself in the two beings at once. This is the case when one
of the two does not deign to notice the other, and also when the other
dissimulates.
I do not believe that Count André experienced at first the aversion
that he would have felt if he had read to the bottom of my soul. In the
beginning he paid very little attention to a young man of Clermont who
had come to the château to be tutor; then I had decided on a constant
dissimulation of my real Self, imprisoned among strangers. I felt no
more repugnance for this defensive hypocrisy than the gardener would
have had in putting straw around the currant bushes to preserve their
fruit against snows and frosts. The falseness of attitude corresponded
too well with my intellectual pride to prevent me from giving myself up
to it with delight.
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