“There is in the phenomenon of pity a physical element, and which,
especially in women, is confined to the sexual emotion.”
It was through pity then, that I proposed to act first upon Charlotte.
I would profit by the first falsehood by which I had already moved
her, combining with it a succession of others, and thus make her love
me by making her pity me. There was, in this use of the most respected
of human sentiments for the profit of my curious fancy, something
particularly contrary to the general prejudice, which flattered my
pride most exquisitely.
While I wrote out this plan with philosophical text to support it,
I imagined what Count André would think, if he could, as in the old
legends, from the depths of his garrison town decipher the words which
I had traced with my pen.
At the same time, the idea alone of directing at will the subtle
movements of a woman’s brain, all this sentimental and intellectual
clockwork so complicated and so tenuous, made me compare myself
to Claude Bernard, to Pasteur and to their pupils. These savants
vivisected animals. Was not I going to vivisect at length, a human soul?
In order to draw from this pity which had been surprised rather than
provoked, all the result demanded, it must first be prolonged. To this
end, I resolved to keep up the comedy of sadness by preparing for the
day of an explanatory conversation, more or less distant, a long,
touching romance of false confidences.
I devoted myself, during the week following our walk, to feigning a
melancholy more or less absorbing, and to feigning it, not only in the
presence of Charlotte, but also during the hours in which I was alone
with my pupil, sure that the child would report to his sister the
impressions of our _tête-à-tête_.
You see here, my dear master, the proof of the useless machinery I was
preparing to employ. Was there any need of involving this boy, who had
been confided to me, in this sad intrigue, and why should I join this
ruse with the others, when Mlle. de Jussat did not for a moment doubt
my sincerity?
We had our lessons, Lucien and I, in a large room dignified by the
name of library, because of the shelves which furnished one side of
the wall. There, behind the gratings lined with green linen, were
innumerable volumes bound in sheepskin, notably all the volumes of the
Encyclopedia. This was a legacy from the founder of the château, a
great philosopher, who had built this habitation among the mountains
for the purpose of bringing up his children in the midst of nature and
after the precepts of Emile.
The portrait of this gentleman free-thinker, a mediocre painting in the
taste of the period, with its powder, and a smile both sceptical and
sensible, adorned one side of the door; on the other side was that of
his wife, quite coquettish under a high coiffure and with patches on
her cheeks.
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