The Disowned — CompleteLytton, Edward Bulwer Lytton, Baron
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The Disowned — Complete
Lytton, Edward Bulwer Lytton, Baron
English fiction -- 19th century
Mordaunt was gazing with vacant yet earnest eye upon the waters beneath;
and so intent was either his mood or look that he was unaware of
Clarence’s approach. Tears fast and large were rolling from those
haughty eyes, which men who shrank from their indifferent glance little
deemed were capable of such weak and feminine emotion. Far, far through
the aching void of time were the thoughts of the reft and solitary
mourner; they were dwelling, in all the vivid and keen intensity of
grief which dies not, upon the day when, about that hour and on that
spot, he sat with Isabel’s young cheek upon his bosom, and listened to
a voice now only heard in dreams. He recalled the moment when the fatal
letter, charged with change and poverty, was given to him, and the pang
which had rent his heart as he looked around upon a scene over which
spring had just then breathed, and which he was about to leave to a
fresh summer and a new lord; and then that deep, fond, half-fearful gaze
with which Isabel had met his eye, and the feeling, proud even in its
melancholy, with which he had drawn towards his breast all that earth
had left to him, and thanked God in his heart of hearts that she was
spared.
“And I am once more master,” thought he, “not only of all I then held,
but of all which my wealthier forefathers possessed. But she who was the
sharer of my sorrows and want,--oh, where is she? Rather, ah, rather
a hundredfold that her hand was still clasped in mine, her spirit
supporting me through poverty and trial, and her soft voice murmuring
the comfort that steals away care, than to be thus heaped with wealth
and honour, and alone,--alone, where never more can come love or hope,
or the yearnings of affection or the sweet fulness of a heart that seems
fathomless in its tenderness, yet overflows! Had my lot, when she left
me, been still the steepings of bitterness, the stings of penury, the
moody silence of hope, the damp and chill of sunless and aidless years,
which rust the very iron of the soul away; had my lot been thus, as it
had been, I could have borne her death, I could have looked upon her
grave, and wept not,--nay, I could have comforted my own struggles with
the memory of her escape; but thus, at the very moment of prosperity, to
leave the altered and promising earth, ‘to house with darkness and
with death;’ no little gleam of sunshine, no brief recompense for the
agonizing past, no momentary respite between tears and the tomb. Oh,
Heaven! what--what avail is a wealth which comes too late, when she, who
could alone have made wealth bliss, is dust; and the light that should
have gilded many and happy days flings only a ghastly glare upon the
tomb?”
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