But as indigenous flowers are eradicated by the spade and plough, so
this feeling is destroyed in the stirring and bustling intercourse of
commercial life. No room is left for it: as little of it at this time
remains in wide America as in thickly peopled England. That to which
soldiers and sailors are reconciled by the spirit of their profession
and the chances of war and of the seas, the love of adventure and the
desire of advancement cause others to regard with the same
indifference; and these motives are so prevalent, that the dispersion
of families and the consequent disruption of natural ties, if not
occasioned by necessity, would now in most instances be the effect of
choice. Even those to whom it is an inevitable evil, and who feel it
deeply as such, look upon it as something in the appointed course of
things, as much as infirmity and age and death.
It is well for us that in early life we never think of the
vicissitudes which lie before us; or look to them only with
pleasurable anticipations as they approach.
Youth
Knows nought of changes: Age hath traced them oft,
Expects and can interpret them.[1]
The thought of them, when it comes across us in middle life, brings
with it only a transient sadness, like the shadow of a passing cloud.
We turn our eyes from them while they are in prospect, but when they
are in retrospect many a longing lingering look is cast behind. So
long as Mr. Allison was in business he looked to Thaxted Grange as the
place where he hoped one day to enjoy the blessings of
retirement,—that _otium cum dignitate_, which in a certain sense the
prudent citizen is more likely to attain than the successful
statesman. It was the pleasure of recollection that gave this hope its
zest and its strength. But after the object which during so many years
he had held in view, had been obtained, his day-dreams, if he had
allowed them to take their course, would have recurred more frequently
to Bishopsgate Street than they had ever wandered from thence to the
scenes of his boyhood. They recurred thither oftener than he wished,
although few men have been more masters of themselves; and then the
remembrance of his wife, whom he had lost by a lingering disease in
middle age; and of the children, those who had died during their
childhood, and those who in reality were almost as much lost to him in
the ways of the world, made him alway turn for comfort to the prospect
of that better state of existence in which they should once more all
be gathered together, and where there would be neither change nor
parting. His thoughts often fell into this train, when on summer
evenings he was taking a solitary pipe in his arbour, with the church
in sight, and the church yard wherein at no distant time he was to be
laid in his last abode. Such musings induced a sense of sober
piety,—of thankfulness for former blessings, contentment with the
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