I soothed her as best I could, without promising to remain in this trap.
Would it not be possible in some way to release her as well as myself? I
sat thinking through the long cold morning, with the monotonous hum of
lessons in my ears. There was nothing for me to do, and I found that I
could not return to the house where I had slept, and where my luggage
was, until night came again. I sat all the morning in the chilly room,
with Minima on the floor at my feet, clinging to me for protection and
warmth, such as I could give.
But what could I do either for her or myself? My store of money was
almost all gone, for our joint expenses had cost more than I had
anticipated, and I could very well see that I must not expect Madame
Perrier to refund Minima's fare. There was perhaps enough left to carry
me back to England, and just land me on its shores. But what then? Where
was I to go then? Penniless, friendless; without character, without a
name--but an assumed one--what was to become of me? I began to wonder
vaguely whether I should be forced to make myself known to my husband;
whether fate would not drive me back to him. No; that should never be. I
would face and endure any hardship rather than return to my former life.
A hundred times better this squalid, wretched, foreign school, than the
degradation of heart and soul I had suffered with him.
I could do no more for Minima than for myself, for I dared not even
write to Mrs. Wilkinson, who was either an accomplice or a dupe of
these Perriers. My letter might fall into the hands of Richard Foster,
or the woman living with him, and so they would track me out, and I
should have no means of escape. I dared not run that risk. The only
thing I could do for her was to stay with her, and as far as possible
shield her from the privations and distress that threatened us both. I
was safe here; no one was likely to come across me, in this remote
place, who could by any chance know me. I had at least a roof over my
head; I had food to eat. Elsewhere I was not sure of either. There
seemed to be no other choice given me than to remain in the trap.
"We must make the best of it, Minima," I whispered to the child, through
the hum of lessons. Her shrewd little face brightened with a smile that
smoothed all the wrinkles out of it.
"That's what father said!" she cried; "he said, 'Courage, Minima. God
will take care of my little daughter.' God has sent you to take care of
me. Suppose I'd come all the way alone, and found it such a horrid
place!"
CHAPTER THE NINTH.
A FRENCH AVOCAT.
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