That we live in a most believing age is palpable, by the fact that this
place swarms with men distinguished in every court and camp in Europe.
Crafty ministers, artful diplomatists, keen old generals, versed in
every wile and stratagem, come here as it were to divest themselves of
all their long-practised acuteness, and give in their adhesion to the
most astounding and incoherent revelations. I cannot bring myself to
suppose these men rogues and hypocrites, and yet I have nearly as
much difficulty to believe them dupes! What have become of those sharp
perceptive powers, that clever insight into motives, and the almost
unerring judgment they could exhibit in any question of politics or
war? It cannot surely be that they who have measured themselves with
the first capacities of the world dread to enter the lists against some
half-informed and narrow-minded village curate; or is it that there
lurks in every human heart some one spot, a refuge as it were for
credulity, which even the craftiest cannot exclude? You are far better
suited than I to canvass such a question, my dear Bob. I only throw it
out for your consideration, without any pretension to solve it myself.
My father, you are well aware, is too good a Churchman to suffer a
syllable to escape his lips which might be construed into discredit of
the faith; but I can plainly see that he skulks his penances, and shifts
off any observance that does not harmonize with his comfort. At the same
time he strongly insists that the fastings and other privations enjoined
are an admirable system to counteract the effect of that voluptuous life
practised in almost every capital of Europe. As he shrewdly remarked,
"This place was like Groeffenberg,--you might not be restored by the
water-cure, but you were sure to be benefited by early hours, healthful
exercise, and a light diet." This, you may perceive, is a very modified
approval of the miracles.
I have dwelt so long on this theme that I have only left myself what
Mary Anne calls the selvage of my paper, for anything else. Nor is
it pleasant to me, Bob, to tell you that I am low-spirited and
down-hearted. A month ago, life was opening before me with every
prospect of happiness and enjoyment. A lovely creature, gifted and
graceful, of the very highest rank and fortune, was to have been mine.
She was actually domesticated with us, and only waiting for the day
which should unite our destinies forever, when one night--I can scarcely
go on--I know not how either to convey to you what is _half_ shrouded in
mystery, and should be perhaps _all_ concealed in shame; but somehow
my father contrived to talk so of our family affairs--our debts, our
difficulties, and what not--that Josephine overheard everything, and
shocked possibly more at our duplicity than at our narrow fortune, she
hurried away at midnight, leaving a few cold lines of farewell behind
her, and has never been seen or heard of since.
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