Children of clergy -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Mountaineering -- Fiction; Mystery fiction
To right and left the gaze rested on snow-clad heights, rocky
buttresses, sharp needles; all the fantastic wildness of bristling
and icy arêtes; of rocky mountain-sides, seamed with gullies; of snowy
mountain-sides, broken by outcrops of bare rock; of hanging glaciers,
glittering in sunshine. Peak lay beyond peak; snow-field stretched
beyond snow-field. To Doris this wonderful tableau brought a sense
of joy; not gay delight, but solemn uplifting rapture.
"It's beyond words," she said. "It is—sublime. But that doesn't
explain. Words don't seem strong enough."
"There are things that can only be felt, not said."
"I think I meant that. It is the width—the greatness—the immensity!
All earth and sky and heaven. Nothing small or puny. Don't you feel
as if you didn't want ever to go back to the paltriness of everyday
life?"
"Is everyday life paltry?"
"Compared with—" Her glance swept the scene.
"Even compared with this. It all depends on what one lives for?"
"You mean—doing things for other people. But they are such tiny
things. This is so grand—so vast! It seems to lift up one's whole
being."
"If you were here always, the force of first impressions would fade.
And that question would still push its way to the front."
"The question—what one lives for—do you mean?"
"Yes. Whether for Duty—or only for Self."
A slight pause followed. "If only one's duties weren't so often just
the very things one most dislikes!"
A look in her companion's face somehow recalled her father. He asked
simply—
"Don't you think that the less one minds about one's own likings,
the better? And after all,—obedience against the grain is always
grander than doing what one wishes. That may land one on a
mountain-top."
"Yes—I see. I suppose—" and she smiled—"when you gave up your climb
that day, for the sake of Mr. Ramsay, you really got to a higher peak
than if you had gone up the Grand Muveran."
He laughed.
"Very kind of you to say so. But that was a simple necessity. Nothing
else could have been possible."
"And since then you've never been able to go, because you have been
so busy, teaching me to climb." That some self-denial might be
involved in this had not earlier occurred to her. She looked at him
gratefully. "But anyhow—you have the work in life that you like.
You are not one of those people who seem put down in just the wrong
place. You wouldn't wish to change!"
"It is the work I have to do. It was not my choice."
"But how—Was it settled for you?"
"Practically. My business now is to make the best of it. We can always
learn to like what we have to do."
"Can we?" The corners of her mouth curled rebelliously. "But I like
to choose for myself. I like to be free."
"Most of us do. But there's a higher standing than just personal
freedom."
"And the higher—?" she questioned.
"Carrying out the will of another, against one's own will—because it
is one's duty."
"Carrying out—anybody's will!"
"I meant, primarily—the Divine Will."
She considered this soberly.
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