For the first few days I did not suffer much from hunger. There were
crumbs left by the servants, and occasionally a mouse crept out from the
kitchen fender, and I had that. But by the fifth day the crumbs had all
gone, and with them the mice, too, had disappeared. They nibbled no
more in the cupboard nor behind the wainscot; and as the clock had run
down there wasn't a sound in the old house by night or by day. I now
began to suffer both from hunger and thirst. I spent my time either
mewing piteously at the hall-door, or roaming purposelessly through the
empty house, or watching, watching, faint and wearily, for the mice that
never came. Perhaps the most bitter part of my sufferings just then was
the thought that would keep obtruding itself on my mind, that for all
the love with which I had loved my mistress, and the faithfulness with
which I had served her, she had gone away, and left me to die all alone
in the deserted house. Me, too, who would have laid down my life to
please her had she only stayed near me.
How slowly the time dragged on--how long and dreary the days, how
terrible the nights! Perhaps it was when I was at my very worst, that I
happened to be standing close by my empty saucer, and in front of my
mirror. At that time I was almost too weak to walk, I tottered on my
feet, and my head swam and moved from side to side when I tried to look
at anything. Suddenly I started. Could that wild, attenuated image in
the mirror be my reflection? How it glared upon me from its glassy
eyes! And now I knew it could not be mine, but some dreadful thing sent
to torture me. For as I gazed it uttered a yell--mournful, prolonged,
unearthly--and dashed at me through and out from the mirror. For some
time we seemed to writhe together in agony on the carpet. Then up again
we started, the mirror-fiend and I. "Follow me fast!" it seemed to cry,
and I was impelled to follow. Wherever it was, there was I. How it
tore up and down the house, yelling as it went and tearing everything in
its way! How it rushed half up the chimney, and was dashed back again
by invisible hands! How it flung itself, half-blind and bleeding, at
the Venetian blinds, and how madly it tried again to escape into the
mirror and shivered the glass! Then mills began in my head--mills and
machinery--and the roar of running waters. Then I found myself walking
all alone in a green and beautiful meadow, with a blue sky overhead and
birds and butterflies all about, a cool breeze fanning my brow, and,
better than all, _water_, pure, and clear, and cool, meandering over
brown smooth pebbles, beside which the minnows chased the sunbeams. And
I drank--and slept.
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