Alcoholics -- Great Britain -- Fiction; Alcoholism -- Great Britain -- Fiction; Temperance -- Fiction
"Random thoughts, Cupid! random thoughts! They come to me like
moths through the still night, and I put them down for you. A
grey-fawn _Papillon de nuit_ is fluttering round my candles now and
sometimes he falls flapping and whirring on my paper like a tiny
clock-work toy. But I will not kill him. I am happy in writing
to my friend, distilling my friendship for you in the lonely
laboratory of self, so he shall go unharmed. His ancestors may have
feasted upon royal tapestries and laid their eggs in the purple
robes of kings!
"What are the moths like in Kensington this night, Cupid?--But of
course you are asleep now. I make a picture for myself of you
sleeping.
"The whole village is asleep now, save only me, and I am trying to
reconstruct our afternoon and evening together, five days ago or
was it six? It is more than ever possible to do that at midnight
and alone, though every detail is etched upon my memory and I am
only adding colour.
"How happy we were! It is so strange to me to think how instantly
we became friends--as we are agreed we are always to be, you and I.
And think of all we still have to find out about each other! There
are golden days coming in our friendship, all sorts of revelations
and surprises. There are so many enchanted places in the Kingdom of
Thought to which I have the key, so many doors I shall open for
you.
"Ours shall be a perfect friendship--of your bounty I crave again
what you have already given!--and I will build it up as an
artificer in rare woods or stained marbles, a carver of
moon-stones, a builder of temples in honey-coloured Travertine,
makes beautiful states in which the soul can dwell, out of
beautiful perishable things.
"How often do two people meet as you and I have met? Most rarely.
Men and women fall in love, sometimes too early, sometimes too
late. There is a brief summer, and then a long winter of calm grey
days which numb the soul into acquiescence, or stab the dull
tranquillity with the lightnings of tragedy and woe.
"We have the better part! We are to be friends, Rita, you and
I--that is the rivulet of repeated melody which runs through my
first letter to you. Some sad dawn will rise for me, when you tell
of something nearer and more poignant than anything I can offer
you. It will be a dawn in which, for you the trumpets, the sackbuts
and the psalteries of Heaven will sound. And your friend will bless
you; and retire to the back of the scene with a most graceful bow!
"In the last act of the play, when all the players appear as Nymphs
and Graces, and Seasons, your friend will be found wearing the rich
yet sober liveries of Autumn, saluting Spring and her Partner with
a courtly song, and a dance which expresses his sentiments
according to the best choreographic traditions.
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