"I don't think she did." Odd's voice was shaken but non-committal.
"Perhaps she loved you more than she could love any one else," said
Hilda.
"Yes; perhaps."
Hilda's hands were still clasped behind her, and she looked hard into
his face as she added with a certain stern deliberateness--
"I don't believe she ever loved anybody."
Odd was silent. He had not dared to hope for such a clear perception.
"She was very cruel to me," said Hilda, after a little pause, and her
eyes, turning from his, looked far away as if following the fading of a
lost illusion.
"I don't think she ever cared much for me either," she added.
"Not much; not as you interpret caring."
Peter kept the balance with difficulty, for over him rushed that
indignant realization of Katherine's intrinsic selfishness.
"No; I could not have been so cruel to her, not even if she had robbed
me of you." It was the most self-assertive speech he had ever heard her
utter.
"No; you could not have been so cruel to her," he repeated, "not even
loving me as you did and as she did not."
There was a pause, a pause in which it seemed to Odd that the very trees
stretched out their branches in breathless listening, and Hilda said
slowly--
"But that doesn't make what I did less wrong. I was as weak, as
disloyal, as though Katherine had loved us both as much as I thought she
did."
"And I as cruel, as weak, as mean?" Odd asked.
"Ah, don't!" she said, with a look of pain. "You have redeemed
yourself," she added, "and have made me more ashamed."
"Then I have made a miserable failure of my attempt."
"No, no; you have not."
The river was before them now, and the woods sloped down to its curving
band of silver. They both stood still and looked at it, and beyond it at
the gentle stretches of autumnal hill and meadow.
"Dear Peter," said Hilda gently. He looked down at her and she up at
him, putting her hand in his, but so gravely and quietly that the tender
little action conveyed nothing but a reminiscence of the child of ten
years ago.
So, holding hands, they were both still silent, and again they looked at
the river, the meadows, and the blue distance of the hills. Palamon,
after running here and there, with rather assumed interest, his nose to
the ground, came and sat down before them with an air of dignified
acquiescence and appreciative contemplation. In the woods the sudden,
sad-sweet twitter of a bird seemed to embroider the silence with
unconscious pathos.
"O Peter!" said Hilda suddenly, on a note as impulsive and as
inevitable as the bird's. He looked at her and put his arms around her,
saying nothing.
"Oh!" said Hilda, "I cannot help it. I love you too much, dear Peter.
Everything else may have been wrong, but it is right to love you."
He took her face between his hands and looked at her.
"Everything else would be wrong."
"Then kiss me, Peter."
He gave himself the joy of a delicious postponement.
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